The semester is almost over, I'm not really sure where the last few months went though. Last week I had 2 tests and 7 papers due...I didn't think it was going to end. It was also my last week in the office at the studio. Bittersweet I guess, I'm very happy with my decision, but telling the girls bye was really hard. :( It seems like the past few weeks have just kinda all run together...maybe that has something to do with being too busy or maybe that has to do with me going out too much. Last week studying and writing consumed most of my time, I did find time to go see Django, Matt Powell, Adam, and Stoney at Schotzi's on Tuesday night with Erica. It was a nice break from studying and we had a good time. Best quote from Erica was "do you know anyone not in a band? Everyone that you have just introduced me to all have something to do with a band." Maybe I should get some more friends...or maybe not. I needed to make an 80 on one of my tests to not have to take the final...that didn't happen. So now I have to make an 86 to pass the class, I'm freaking out a little, but honestly I've done everything I could this semester and if I have to retake it, I'll be okay with that. I have that final next monday and I have a final in music on Friday so after monday, I will be done! I started training last week for my new job, and it went well. I'm excited to be doing something different, so we will see how that works out.

Sarah came to visit over the weekend, and we had lots of fun. Friday Kayla, Sarah, and I went to Huntsville to see Jack and he was amazing as always, Saturday we just stayed around the house and didn't really do much and then Saturday night Kayla, Devan, and I took Sarah to The Hall and to Northgate. We all definitley had fun. Sunday we all went to lunch, then Sarah left. I spent way too much money and drank way too much, but it was fun.

Today I had nothing to do and honestly it was nice. No work and no school was really just strange. I studied some and did laundry so I wasn't completely bored. Tomorrow I have an interview for an internship at Sam Houston Racepark and then I'm gonna go shop a little then I'm going to see Wade with Renee!! Wednesday night Wade is in CS and I may be going to that or maybe going to Northgate with Kayla...then Thursday I may be going to Huntsville to see Brandon Rhyder and No Justice. I mean why break my tradition of going to the fox the night before finals. :) I really don't have to money to do all of this, but I'm sure it will be fine. If only I can convince myself to go out and not drink so much...i'm usually good about not drinking, but lately I have not been. I probably should work on that.

Things really do work out....

So I have a job!! Yay!! I will be working in the marketing and communications department at A&M. Essentially I will be writing press releases for A&M and helping the PR people. I'm really excited. I start training the 25th...my last day at the studio is the 24th. I'm going to stay and teach my girls, I feel like I owe them that. I basically have 6 days left at my job and honestly I'm ready to leave. I have an interview in the morning for an internship with the City of College Station. Ideally I would get that as well, but we will see what happens.

This was suppose to be a calm week to catch up on things, however thats not how it has started. I was in Dallas yesterday morning at an Interview at Make-A-Wish, and honestly it would be an amazing place to work. If it wasn't unpaid and a good hour and a half away from my parents I would think it was perfect. So unfortunately if I get it, I will have to decline. Then I got a call about going to see Bruce Springsteen, and as much as I really wanted to go I decided that I just couldn't make it to Houston. So I went to lunch with my dad, took like a 2 hour nap and drove back to CS. When I got back in town Emily came over and we cooked dinner and watched tv. She left around 8 to go teach and I was just going to stay home and study. Well that didn't happen. Around 8:30 my phone rang, it was Django. Apparently he got bored and decided to drive to CS. SO I got up and got ready and found some people to go out with me and headed to Shotzi's. Let's just say it was a really fun night and class this morning sucked! I don't know how much I had to drink, I stopped counting. Django paid for everything and since he doesn't really like shots, anytime someone bought him one he gave it to me. Probably the worst thing ever. It was open mic night, so at the end of the night he got up and played a little and that was fun. Great night....today was just long and I did not feel well at all. And yes...i did make it to my 8am class.

Register for classes at 6 in the morning, interview at 8, work until 6, Student Communication Association officer interview, then Ryan James at Lakeside Icehouse...should be a long but fun day!

2 weeks notice....

So I just quit my job. And to be honest with you I don't feel that bad at all. I feel bad about leaving my girls I teach, but to be honest with you I feel really good right now. My boss is horrible and I realized that more and more as I was talking to her. I'm not going to go into details, but the next few 2 weeks should be interesting.

In other news...I have 2 more job/internship interviews next week. One is with the City of College Station and it sounds perfect for me. It also pays $10 an hour. I also should hear back from the Marketing and Communications department at A&M about a job I interviewed for last week. Ideally I would get both the job and one of the internships.

Confused?

I guess its easier to be around what you are comfortable with. I'm stronger now, right? Maybe I'm not, maybe thats just what I want to make myself believe. I guess I'm just so confused right now. My head says one thing, my heart says another. What am I suppose to do? My mind is all over the place now, and I can't seem to figure it out. I know that everything will work out, and honestly I don't need to be stressing over this, I just don't want to get hurt or hurt someone because of this.

It goes around it comes around
It’s where you want it to be
Sometimes you’re lost
Sometimes you’re found
It’s an eternity
Why can’t we make the circles go away

Another fun weekend...

"Remember when there were like 10 people at our shows and you were one of them, we won't forget that, but this was really cool."

Those were the first words out of Jon's mouth when I saw the boys after the show. It made me want to cry...yet it made me so happy for them. I can't tell you how cool Friday night was. I knew how excited they all were that the show was sold out, but I until I walked into House of Blues did it really all soak in. Ryan James opened the show...he was great as usual. He looked to be having a lot of fun. When Sarah and I first got there we saw Lori, then went and found Dawn and Deidre. I was in the crowd near the front for part of the show and in the back for the rest. My favorite place was near the back because I could see all the boys and could watch the crowd. The crowd was great, nothing better than hearing the crowd singing along. They played a lot of the new stuff and that made me happy, Ain't The Fallen, Enough is Enough, Jet Black and Jealous, Home, Just Like Guinevere, and thats all I can remember at the moment. Ain't The Fallen and Enough Is Enough are still my favorites and I love hearing them. After the show they said they were going to hang around and sign stuff so I decided to at lest say hi. So I got to see them and tell Mike happy birthday. They were all still smiling and I think a little in shock. I was proud of them and was glad I got to see them. Then I took Sarah home and went to my parents to sleep for a little while.

Saturday I woke up early and went to play with Dylan because I had to miss his birthday party that was later in the day. After playing with him I drove back to CS. I was so tired, as a matter of fact, I don't even really remember the drive back. Probably not a good thing. I got back and had to be at some Girl Scout thing for one of my classes. We were suppose to be teaching little girls...I was there, but I felt like I was probably useless. After that I came home and took a really long nap, woke up and watched the Kansas game, then slept some more!

Today I was suppose to go to Austin to the Gruene With Envy Awards, but it just didn't happen. I couldn't find anyone to go with and since I hadn't done much homework the past few days I decided that I needed to stay here. So I've just been studying and getting ready for the week. I also got to talk to a friend that I hadn't talked to in awhile, and that is always fun. This week should be pretty calm, nothing major. I had a job interview last week that I am really hoping I get and should find out in the next few weeks and I also have an interview at the Make-A-Wish foundation next week. Hopefully something will work out, I'm starting to freak out about the whole job/internship thing, but I'm sure it will all work out.

It ain’t the fallin in love that I'm scared of
It ain’t the moonlight shinning in your eyes
It ain’t the fallin baby
Cause the fallin I've always liked
I'm good at being lonely
Lonely’s all I got
It ain’t the fallin in love that will kill me
It’s the sudden stop.

This has been one of the most random up and down weeks I've had in awhile. I am very glad for the past few days to be over though. Going out, seeing live music, and hanging out with friends is always good...however the lack of sleep it caused was not fun. On top of all of that my mind was all over the place this week. I feel like I had worked very hard to be a "responsible" college student but it seemed like this week I was willing to not be that way. It was so easy for me to go back to what I was use too and what I was comfortable with. That kinda scares me, because this week instead of being logical like I usually am, I just did what I felt like and didn't seem to really think about it. I know sometimes we all need a fun night out, but things could have not been good this week. Luckily things all worked out and hopefully I don't have another week like this one. I'm looking forward to the weekend, it should be fun, and hopefully less stressful than the past few days. Tomorrow morning I have an interview at the Marketing and Communications Department at A&M, then I'm driving to my parents, probably doing a little homework, dinner with the family, then House of Blues in Dallas to see EYB and Ryan James. Saturday I'm gonna spend the morning playing with Dylan then I have to come back to CS for a school thing. Sunday Kayla and I and possibly Melanie are going to Austin to the Gruene with Envy awards. Live music and friends...should be good.

Today was good...much better than yesterday. Things that made me smile today...

~finishing everything that has to be done this week for school
~getting another interview..in Dallas
~winning tickets to GWE on Sunday...and making plans to go with Kayla
~talking on aim...as strange as that sounds, its probably one of my favorite things that happened today
~listening to music...is it bad that majority of what i listen to is depressing yet it makes me in such a good mood.
~I didn't have to go to work....it is nice to have a day off in the middle of the week
~lab getting canceled was great and that meant i got a nap

Now if only tomorrow and Thursday would go fast...i'm ready for the weekend.