Things are just a little crazy around my house, but nothing that I can't handle at the moment. Last week I had plans to go out several nights but that didn't really happen. Tuesday Kelly and I went shopping at Grapevine Mills and had planned on going to see Ice at the Gaylord but ended up just walking around the Gaylord and talking. It was a fun day and I even got some Christmas shopping done! I've never liked going to shows by myself, but No Justice was playing an acoustic show at Overtime (which is less than a mile from my house) so I decided to go. It was pretty crowded, so I ended up finding a seat in the back and had a great time. I love acoustic shows and this was no exception. It was really a great night and it was nice to go out and listen to music. It was over pretty early and after I talked to Steve for a bit I went home. I like shows that are close to my house, I get home at 1 instead of 3. I just worked the rest of the week, nothing too exciting.

Saturday morning I worked and then went to Gruene with my parents to see Jerry Jeff Walker. I've been to Gruene to see JJW the last few years and it is one of my favorite concerts of the year. After we got to the hotel and I got ready we (my mom, tommy, and Susanna) met some of my mom's cousins for dinner at the Gristmill. After dinner they went to find a place to sit at Gruene Hall and Susanna and I went and hung out with Django to pre drink and watch the Heisman Awards show. After listening to some random Ipod music and some shots we decided to go find my parents. D was playing with his dad, so we got there in plenty of time to see the show. I spent most of the night wandering around and just listening to the music then towards the end of the night some guys let me stand on some benches and I had a great view of the stage. Jerry Jeff usually starts at 9, so the show was over and we were back at the hotel pretty early. Sunday I woke up way too early and couldn't go back to sleep but we didn't end up leaving till around 10:30. My parents like to drive backroads home...which is okay with me sometimes but it took forever and I wanted to be home. After we got home I went and got Ginger from my grandparents and came home and did nothing the rest of the evening. Today was my day off, so I went shopping and finished buying all my Christmas presents and even got them wrapped! I don't really have plans the rest of the week, just working and maybe trying to find something to do this weekend.

I'm not sure if it was the wedding I went yesterday or just the people I saw...but it really made me think about life and the last few years. Since I left the wedding, I have been in a strange mood. The wedding I went to was for one of my best friends from high school. I say best friend...but I haven't seen her since the day we graduated. As a matter of fact, I haven't seen most of the people that were really good friends of mine in high school since graduation. There were several things that happened during high school that caused our friendships not to be as strong, but I guess we all just went our separate ways and things for the most part were never that bad. I know I can't change the past but I sometimes wonder "what if." Was it dance? Was it music? Was it me? I guess it was a combination of all of those things, but it really isn't an easy concept to grasp. I kind of miss some of those friends.

In 4 years so much has happened, and although I'm not exactly where I would like to be in life or doing what I want to be doing, I can't complain. Yesterday was a little hard though. Most of my friends were either married or in a serious relationship and had steady jobs. I'm not saying that I am completely unhappy with things right now, but living with my parents and working for my granddad is really not the ideal situation. It's been 7 months....and although I say I'm okay with things, this is not where I want to be. My parents and grandparents are great, I love the people I work with, and I have things pretty good. So to me it almost seems wrong to be complaining, I could have no place to live and no job, so for that I'm grateful. For so long, things seemed to be working out, and now things aren't really what I imagined. The other thing I worry about is that I'm not doing anything in the field I really want to be working in, so now I have 7 months of experience for what?   Then that question of where do you want to be? To be honest, I have no idea.

I really can't believe it is December already. I spent most of the day shopping and decided I'm doing the rest online. I love to shop, but shopping at Christmas time is just a little crazy for me. Thanksgiving was great. I got to spend a lot of time all of my family and for the most part things were good. I also got to see Renee and Christy some too which was great. One of the many things I miss about living in College Station is being close enough to Houston or Austin to just visit...not as easy from Burleson. I had both Thursday and Friday off which was nice and then Friday night I met Dawn, Erica, and Erica's family at Palladium for EYB and David Nail. It had been awhile since I had seen just an EYB show so that was fun and I've listened to David Nail for awhile now and he was amazing live. Great night, great friends, and great music...I couldn't ask for much more. I had to work Saturday morning which was a little tough but luckily it was only for 4 hours. Then I went to a baby shower for my friend Christy with my grandmother. It was good to see her and I can't wait for Britton to get here in a few weeks! Sunday I really didn't do much then went to my grandparents to eat Thanksgiving leftovers. Not much planned the rest of the week except going to a wedding on Saturday for one of my friends from high school.