Fates got a plan for us, even when our lives get rough

I don't handle stress very well...I'm getting better, but sometimes I completely fall apart. Luckily I have great friends that remind me I'm going to be okay.

This past weekend was great. Friday I went with the Student Communication Association to Dallas for the day. We met with the communication and marketing departments at Southwest Airlines, The Richardson Group (a PR agency) and Deloitte (an accounting and consulting firm). It was a very long day since we had to leave CS at 5:30 and well I couldn't go to sleep until like 2, but I had fun. I met with some really great people and learned alot. I had wanted to go to see Ragweed at Harry's, but we got back to CS around 8:30 and all I wanted to do was sleep.

Saturday I got to sleep in and that was really fun. Then I got up and cleaned my apartment because Dawn was coming to visit! She got to my apartment around 2, we hung out and talked, then got ready to go to dinner then to Huntsville. We got to the fox just in time to see Wade and he was fabulous as always. Then EYB came on around 9:30. It was a really fun show. All the boys were enjoying themselves and the crowd was great. There were a lot of people, but I didn't really have a problem at all. There was a little more screaming than I would have liked, but I guess I'm used to it. I only had 1 drink..well actually not even that much since Mike decided to drink some of it while he was on stage. Wade came on stage during Come Together to sing with Mike and that was really fun. After the show we stayed around for a little while and talked with the boys, then we drove back to CS. We were home pretty early and I was tired so I went to sleep.

Sunday Dawn and I went to lunch then she left to drive back. I went back home to study for the afternoon and decide what I was going to do. I had planned on going to Luling, but I was enjoying being home and relaxing so I had almost convinced myself to not go. Then I talked to Django and decided that I hadn't seen him in awhile so as long as i could get someone to go with me I was going to go. So I called Emily and she wanted to go. Well sometime in between getting ready and needing to leave I talked with Kayla and decided I wanted to go hang out with her and watch the KU game. So I called Emily, and she told me she wanted to go. So I decided I really wanted to go to and told Kayla I would have to pass. So we left to go to Luling and after a little adventure we got to the show around 6:30. Just in time to see everyone that I had wanted to. I am so glad I went, I needed some time away from studying and nothing better than acoustic music and friends that I don't get to see very often. Django was great as usual and the new stuff is wonderful. I have to say that my favorite though was Ryan James singing "Aint the fallin" He wrote the song with Mike and EYB has been playing it at shows for several months now. It is probably my new favorite. I had heard Ryan sing it one other time, but he was very drunk and completely forgot the words. This time was great. It was good to see Ryan Turner as well, I had not seen him in forever. The ending set was Matt Powell, Wade, Bleu and Cory and was a great way to end the night. Then Emily and I drove back to CS and I went to sleep.

The weekend was great, then today was not much fun. I woke up and needed to work on homework but didn't end up doing anything I needed to. So I went to work and thought hopefully it would be okay. Suzanne is gone for the week, so I figured it would be pretty quiet. The first few hours were alright and then Emily came to visit for a bit. Then I got a call from the lady I was suppose to intern with, and well long story short...I don't think its going to work out. Initially I was upset, but its okay for now, I don't really need to add another 15 hours to my week, so that will all work out. I've been waiting on a grad for my Comm theory class to decide if I needed to drop the class. Well I didn't do horrible, but I didn't do well. I'm still making a D (I have to make a C) but its still possible to bring it up. So after thinking about it I'm going to stay in the class and hope for the best. Other things made the day bad, but I guess everything happens for a reason. Hopefully the rest of the week is better. Tomorrow I have a test, wednesday I'm going to see Ryan James, Thursday night I'm going home, Friday I'm going to see Ryan James and EYB at House of Blues, Saturday I have to be back in CS for school, and then Sunday I'm thinking about Gruene with Envy. At least I have some good music planned...hopefully that will keep me sane.

Where have the past few weeks gone?

I've been so busy lately and realized today that I haven't been home much. I had gotten really use to being home and I've kinda missed it. With spring break and easter, I have been in Burleson and with the family the past 3 weekends...as much fun as it has been, I'm glad to be back in CS and in my own apartment. This week should be another busy week with no time for fun, but oh well I suppose thats alright.

Random things...

~I got the internship at Mesina Hoff!!! I start April 2...went in the interview expecting a position for the summer, but they really wanted me to start in April. I really couldn't turn it down. I mean whats another 10/15 hours a week. Basically I will be working there from 8-11:30 MWF...then I work at the dance studio from 12-6. uggghh...working 8-6, I haven't done that in awhile but I'm very excited. Oh and I'm still not exactly sure what I will be doing, but I'm going to be working with the lady in charge of Human Resources, then possibly working with the hotel and catering services.

~School is still okay...very busy but my grades are still alright

~Course schedules were up online last week....it is possible for me to graduate in December if I want to, now its just a matter of what I want to do. Not an easy decision. Part of me wants to finish...part of me wants to stay in CS a little longer. Its not like I hate it here, to be honest I love being in CS, but i dunno what i'm going to do.

~I don't get to go to Greenfest this year...I was planning on it but I just can't make it work and that makes me sad. I'm still probably going to do stuff this weekend as far as shows are concerned, just a little closer to home.

~I got to see my dad's family today. I hadn't seen most of them since Christmas...I remembered very quickly why that was. I'm a much stronger person now and can handle being around them....but its nice to have a car and can leave after an hour. I've just learn to accept that nothing I do will ever be good enough for them. Oh and this is the family that the only emails i've received over the past few months were asking if I could help get them some items to help raise money for my cousins prom. They wanted to know if I could get some stuff from eyb, django or "any other band I knew" and if I didn't want to do all the work I could just send them the numbers and they would call. Hahahaha. I loooove when they only care whats going on when they want something. By the way...I didn't help or give them anyone's number. :)

~I'm trying to figure out how my apartment gets to be such a mess when I'm NEVER here!!!

~1 paper and 1 test this week...hopefully i get it all done and find some time to sleep.

Now back to studying! I hope you all have a wonderful week.

I have an interview!!!

So I have an interview on Friday morning for an internship at Messina Hof Winery. I don't exactly know what I would be doing but it would be working in Human Resources/Communications/Public Relations or something like that. I'm excited...and now I get to wear my cute new clothes and shoes!!!

Maybe I'm being a spoiled brat...

but I'm really upset. I went to my dads last night to spend the night because we had to wake up early to drive to port aransas. So while sitting there with my dad, he tells me...."don't get mad, but we bought britt a car today." Okay, so she needed a new car, I know that, but this is her 3rd car that they have bought her, and I've only gotten one. When I graduated, the rule was suppose to be that we got new cars after 2 years of college. Well, that didn't happen obviously. I'm happy with my car, I really am, it is just really frustrating that I try so hard, and do everything that I am suppose to, and she will still always get everything. I know I'm not living without anything, its just the principal of the situation. Last year when I finished 2 years at A&M I knew they couldn't really afford a new car and I was okay with it. Honestly I want to wait till I graduate or my car doesn't work anymore because I drive alot and really don't need a new car. Oh well...just needed to vent. Maybe it makes me a spoiled brat, but I'm not very happy at the moment. To make it worse, I couldn't say a word since I'm spending the weekend wiht them. UGGGGGHHH!

So my spring break is half over and for the most part it has been pretty relaxing. I went to lunch with Dawn on Sunday and it was an interesting lunch because the electricity decided to go out, but it was good to talk and catch up with Dawn. Then I went to dinner at my grandparents and worked on some homework when I got home. Homework on spring break isn't really fun, but I don't want to have to do it all on Monday when I get back to CS, so I'm really gonna try to get everything finished. I went to my old dance studio to visit. They just moved to a new building and its so pretty. I wanted to go back. She was my favorite boss and I loved taking dance from her. She had a new baby in November and his name is Frankie. He is adorable and I'm glad I got to play. Rocco...her baby that I kept all the time is now 3 1/2. He was soooo cute. He came up and hugged me, even though he had no idea who I was and then we played a little before he went to tap class. I miss that studio so much, I told Cristin I was coming back to work after I graduated! I got my hair cut, it just has more layers now and side bangs. I don't know that I like it yet, but its alright. I've been shopping the past few days to get clothes for interviews....and I finally found some stuff. Now I just need the interviews! I have been talking to an old friend again and it has been so good. I had really missed talking to him, and I know things will never be the same between us, but for now....things are really good. Today is my last day at my mom's and tomorrow morning I am going to Port Aransas with my dad for the weekend. Brittany and Kenya are coming on Friday. Hopefully it is a good and relaxing weekend. Luckily this time I will have my own car if I want to do something. I have like 5 papers to write, so that will take up a lot of my time, but writing papers while laying outside of the beach house is one of my favorite things to do. I'm going to try and enjoy my last few days of having basically no responsibilities, because once I get back to CS next week things are going to be so busy and crazy, but for the most part should be good.

Spring Break....

and it does NOT feel like Spring. I miss 90 degree weather...especially if its not gonna snow here. So I have to work 5 hours tomorrow, then its time for a break. I have a lot of school work to do over the break, but most of it should be easy. I'm staying in town until Saturday because I'm going to the A&m/kansas bball game and I'm really excited. Hopefully we will play well..winning would be nice too. Then I will be at my parents for a few days doing basically nothing. Then on thursday I am driving to Port Aransas to spend the weekend at my dad's beach house. It should be a pretty relaxing spring break and I'm looking forward to spending time with my family.

This week has just been crazy and busy. I haven't really had much to do for school but I have just been busy with other stuff. Tuesday night Erica and I went to see "The Producers" and that was really fun. I won tickets and I needed to go to a musical this semester for my music class so it was great. Work has been pretty busy, but then again its getting closer to recital so its only going to get worse. I found out I made an 87 on one of my tests....so I'm still making 4 A's and a C!! :) Other than that, its been nice to talk with old friends...I needed time...they needed time and now things just seem right. I have not been this happy with everything in a really long time.

Coming home at 3am two nights in a row...

Sometimes I missed it all and as much fun as this weekend was, I could not go back to that life. Friday night Mel got into town, we had dinner and went up to the show. It was awkward at first, but things were okay. Either things were going to be good or things were going to be bad...I'm glad that they were okay because honestly that was what we all needed. When we got in to Harry's everyone kind of split up between tables and some people went to the front of the stage. Mel and I decided to sit at a table and ended up hanging out with Kayla and Bri most of the night. My friend Emily ended up coming later and that was fun as well. I spent way too much money and drank more than I probably should have, but you live and learn. I do however remember the entire night and I was not sick the next morning. I think the few shots Kayla and I took together may have been a little much but I guess once in like a year I can go out and have a little fun. I remember the boys playing, but honestly we were all talking and not paying attention. The few songs that we did pay attention too were somewhat weird and awkward, but again things were okay. After the show ended, Mel and I went home. We didn't hang around and talk to anyone because it was way too crowded. We got back to my apartment and went to sleep. For some unknown reason we both woke up at 8 and got ready and spent the day shopping and eating lunch. Then we went to Bri's to hang out and Kayla and Devan also came over. We stayed there for awhile then went to dinner and came home. At this point we were tired so we were just going to watch a movie and go to bed. Well..thank our phones rang and Bri and Kayla convinced us to go out. We didn't do much just went to Northgate and hung out. I slept very well last night then we got up this morning and Mel let to drive back to Plano. Now I'm just laying around my apartment trying to understand all that has happened. I have a little homework/studying to do so eventually thats the plan. So that was my weekend...and here are just some random thoughts.

~I don't miss drama
~It was a fun weekend, but I don't intend to make a habit of it
~I found out something that I always knew was true...and I guess it just gave me more of a peace of mind
~I'm glad Kayla and are "okay" I was tired of not being able to be around her without things being weird.
~Moving really was the best thing I ever did
~They all were my friends at some point for a reason...and it was nice to be around them for a little while
~I still really do care...but I've also learned how to deal with everything.
~I'm ready to go back to school and work...i like my life being calm

WOW....

That pretty much is the only word that comes to mind about this weekend. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel like really writing a blog about it. I'm really still just trying to understand all that has happened....Kayla...Me...Mel...Bri...lots of alcohol...and a lot of unresolved drama. Here's one picture of many from friday night....