Do you ever just get in one of those moods where you are okay but you just want to cry? I mean, there are so many things I should be grateful for right now, but I can't help but want something more. My life is so repetitive and predictable. I guess that is because that is the way I have made it, but some days I just want to do something out of the ordinary. I love my family, I love my parents, but I want to be in my own apartment. I say that, but would that really make me happier? Would that really help the situation? I lived by myself for 2 years, and felt basically the same way I do now. It seems like I deal with this on a daily basis. I live at least an hour away from the few close friends I do have which makes things hard. If I moved would it make things different? I want someone to go to dinner with, I want someone to go see a movie with, I want someone to go to a show with me, I just want someone to spend time with. Is that too much to ask? I guess it is, so then I begin to question who I am. Should I change who I am? Should I make new friends? Should I get a new hobby? I don't know the answers, and honestly I don't see things changing much any time soon because I don't know what to change.

"Put your troubles behind you
And go on to bed
Let go of the worry
There's so much nobody understands
Don't live your life in such a hurry"
~Ryan Adams