It has been almost a week since I found out that I didn't have a job at the dance studio anymore and to be honest, I am doing much better than I thought I would be. That is not to say that I am not disappointed, because I still am. I love to teach and I love to dance, I loved going to work every day, but sometimes things just don't work out. And maybe that wasn't where I was suppose to be and I'm trying to come to terms with that. I've always been the "responsible" one, so sometimes I forget that not everyone is like that. I'm not one take risks very often, and unfortunately I did take a risk and it didn't work out. Do I regret it? No. Do I regret staying as long as I did? Maybe. I really wanted things to work, and for whatever reason, it didn't. I have since learned the character of some people are much different than I thought. I don't have a "win at all  cost" attitude, and sometimes in the "dance world" that is the attitude people have. I dance for fun and because I enjoy it. Dancing for pure fun and enjoyment was not what the goal of the studio was, and in the end I think that created a problem. I tried my best, and that is all I can do. So I spent most of thursday afternoon crying because well, that's what I did. Luckily, my parents, dawn, and her mom and I had tickets to see EYB at Winstar on Thursday night. It was a last minute decision, and to be honest it was exactly what I needed. I needed to get out of the house,. So I met my parents in Denton and they drove the rest of the way and we met Dawn and her mom around 7:45. The boys show started around 8, and let me tell you, I could get use to early shows. I hadn't seen eyb since June and that was at lonestar park, not the best show in my opinion. The only other time I have seen them this year was in New York and that was in February. So I was excited to see them. The show was great, I liked that there were seats and that the average age of the crowd wasn't 14. We all had a great time, despite the rude security people and we got to say hi to the guys for a minute. It's funny how the littlest things can make everything okay, and that's what Thursday night was for me. I'd missed those boys.

Friday night I went to dinner in Frisco with Mel and had a great time. It had been awhile since we had seen each other and it was a good night. I did absolutley nothing on Saturday and to be honest that wasn't a good idea but I guess its okay to have one of those days every once in awhile. Sunday morning I went to brunch with some people in Fort Worth and then went to see my grandparents and Dylan for a little while before I had to come back to Lewisville to work.

This week I've been working more hours at Hilton since I don't have anything else to do and have been trying to find another job. I had a job interview on Monday and am still negotiating pay/hours at the moment, so who knows. I also have an interview with a dance studio in Coppell tomorrow. I'm trying to have a little faith that things will work out, but not knowing what I will be doing tomorrow is a little stressful.

Hopefully tomorrow night I'll make it to Hat Tricks to see Sean McConnel and then I think I am going to Dallas on Friday night to see Erica. I'll probably be in Burleson Saturday & Sunday because I have a baby shower to go to but I don't really have much planned. Mostly, I'm just trying to figure out what I'm doing next but things are okay at the moment. I'm just thankful that I was smart enough to know that I needed a back up job in case the dance job didn't work because its paying the bills right now!

Well, I don't have a job at the dance studio anymore. Not really going to say much more than that other than it sucks being lied to and basically used. Some people are just selfish I guess.

Sometimes I wonder if moving to Lewisville was the best decision for me, but to be honest I love having my own place. Yes, I've been spending a lot of time in Burleson when I'm not working, but it is by choice, and that makes it nice. This past weekend I went to my parents because my granddad needed me to work at the vet clinic Saturday morning. It was one of the best weekends I have had in awhile. Friday night my mom was gone so Tommy, grandma, granddad and I went to Grandview to visit my Granny. I don't go see her near enough so it was really good to see her. After that we met my Uncle Keith, Aunt Lisa, and Rachel for dinner. It was good to catch up with them. After that Lacey called so we went over to visit her for awhile and look and see what she got done with the baby room! I'm so excited for her to be having a baby. Only a few more months. Saturday morning I worked then Tommy, mom and I met Ashley, Andy, and Abigail for lunch. (yes we met them in lewisville about .5 mile from my apartment.) Then Saturday night Tommy, granddad, Dawn, and I went to the Rangers/Red Sox game. Even though the ranger lost I had a great time and it had been way too long since I had seen Dawn. Sunday I met my dad for breakfast then spent the afternoon/evening at my grandparents trying to keep Dylan entertained. After dinner I came back to Lewisville and that was about it. I'm just working at Hilton this week, the dance studio is closed for the week. Next week we start our regular schedule, although I'm still not sure exactly when/what I'm teaching. I'm going to try and get caught up on house cleaning, laundry, decorating, and photography stuff while I have my afternoons free. Who knows if that will happen though.

I had the weekend off from both dance and Hilton so I really wanted to do something. Unfortunatley a lot of my friends had things to do this weekend so I wasn't sure what I was going to do. I had talked with my dad about going to the beach house but he wasn't sure if he was going so I tried to make other plans but nothing really worked out. I called on Wednesday to see what his plans were and he was already in Aransas Pass. So after I got off work on Friday I took Ginger to my parents and drove to Aransas Pass. It had been a long time since I had really driving that far, and Im not going to lie, I was exhausted when I got there. We went to dinner and I went to sleep pretty early. Yesterday I got up pretty early and we stayed around the house for a bit and then I went outside. We just got new kayaks so Kenya and I went out in the water for awhile. For anyone that doesn't know, I swore I would never get in a kayak again after my freshman year of high school when I feel off one in the ocean. I've been pretty scared of getting in the water in general since then so for me to get back on a kayak was a big accomplishment for me. I'm not the most graceful person in the world, but I managed to do pretty well and had a great time. After we got done we went to lunch and then drove around for the rest of the afternoon. Last night we went to dinner and I helped clean up the boat and stuf and that was about it. We got up this morning and I came back to Burleson and had dinner with my parents and grandparents and then came back to Lewisville. It wasn't a long enough trip and I'm tired from driving but overall it was a great trip. Back to work with no days off for awhile!