It has been almost a week since I found out that I didn't have a job at the dance studio anymore and to be honest, I am doing much better than I thought I would be. That is not to say that I am not disappointed, because I still am. I love to teach and I love to dance, I loved going to work every day, but sometimes things just don't work out. And maybe that wasn't where I was suppose to be and I'm trying to come to terms with that. I've always been the "responsible" one, so sometimes I forget that not everyone is like that. I'm not one take risks very often, and unfortunately I did take a risk and it didn't work out. Do I regret it? No. Do I regret staying as long as I did? Maybe. I really wanted things to work, and for whatever reason, it didn't. I have since learned the character of some people are much different than I thought. I don't have a "win at all  cost" attitude, and sometimes in the "dance world" that is the attitude people have. I dance for fun and because I enjoy it. Dancing for pure fun and enjoyment was not what the goal of the studio was, and in the end I think that created a problem. I tried my best, and that is all I can do. So I spent most of thursday afternoon crying because well, that's what I did. Luckily, my parents, dawn, and her mom and I had tickets to see EYB at Winstar on Thursday night. It was a last minute decision, and to be honest it was exactly what I needed. I needed to get out of the house,. So I met my parents in Denton and they drove the rest of the way and we met Dawn and her mom around 7:45. The boys show started around 8, and let me tell you, I could get use to early shows. I hadn't seen eyb since June and that was at lonestar park, not the best show in my opinion. The only other time I have seen them this year was in New York and that was in February. So I was excited to see them. The show was great, I liked that there were seats and that the average age of the crowd wasn't 14. We all had a great time, despite the rude security people and we got to say hi to the guys for a minute. It's funny how the littlest things can make everything okay, and that's what Thursday night was for me. I'd missed those boys.

Friday night I went to dinner in Frisco with Mel and had a great time. It had been awhile since we had seen each other and it was a good night. I did absolutley nothing on Saturday and to be honest that wasn't a good idea but I guess its okay to have one of those days every once in awhile. Sunday morning I went to brunch with some people in Fort Worth and then went to see my grandparents and Dylan for a little while before I had to come back to Lewisville to work.

This week I've been working more hours at Hilton since I don't have anything else to do and have been trying to find another job. I had a job interview on Monday and am still negotiating pay/hours at the moment, so who knows. I also have an interview with a dance studio in Coppell tomorrow. I'm trying to have a little faith that things will work out, but not knowing what I will be doing tomorrow is a little stressful.

Hopefully tomorrow night I'll make it to Hat Tricks to see Sean McConnel and then I think I am going to Dallas on Friday night to see Erica. I'll probably be in Burleson Saturday & Sunday because I have a baby shower to go to but I don't really have much planned. Mostly, I'm just trying to figure out what I'm doing next but things are okay at the moment. I'm just thankful that I was smart enough to know that I needed a back up job in case the dance job didn't work because its paying the bills right now!