Growing up isn't that much fun. I wish I could just be happy with where my life is, why is that so hard? I guess it's just one of those nights, tomorrow is a new day and hopefully it will be better.

So it's been over 2 months since I've updated this thing! Here are a few updates on my life!

~I got a new dance job that I was really enjoying, but thanks to my psycho boss and the lack of communication I quit a few weeks ago. It breaks my heart to leave my kids, but it was the best decision for me and I think I'll be taking a break from the dance world for awhile.

~I finished training for my new position at the end of September and have been back working at home since then. I'm glad I have a job, but I'm bored with what I'm doing at Hilton. Hopefully something else will turn up soon, but if not at least I have a job that I enjoy and it pays the bills.

~I turned 24 last month, didn't do a whole lot really. Went to see Sean McConnel @ the glass cactus and had a great night. I went by myself which I hated, but I made some new friends while I was there. Then Susanna came to visit and we went to see D & JJW with my parents.

~Probably the most exciting thing for me at least has been my "cousin" Scout being born. I use the term cousin but really it's just complicated. I will be "Aunt Jamie" and then when she gets older she will have to figure out how we are  really related just like my mother isn't really Lacey's aunt! Anyway, she is absolutley perfect. I've had so much fun visiting with Lacey and Chris and holding Scout as much as possible. And taking pics of her which she wasn't thrilled about!

~I went to College Station with my parents to the A&M/tech game and had a great time. I really miss living in College Station and really wish I could have gone to more games this year.

~Abigail is getting so big! I'm ready for her to be big enough to play with me!

~My great-grandmother passed away a few weeks ago and as much as she was ready to go, it was still hard. She was such a sweet person and I loved going to visit her anytime I had the chance, but I know she is in heaven with my Papa and Aunt Cindy watching over all of us know.

~I had 2 job interviews in the last week. I haven't heard anything back. It's frustrating, but maybe something will work out.

~I've been to my parents house the past 4 weekends and I'm thinking about going home again this weekend even though I have to work some. Then I'm going home for Thanksgiving and will probably be there 4 or 5 days. I love living by myself, but it gets lonely at times especially when I don't have any plans. At least if I'm in Burleson I have things to do and can at least hang out with my parents. I know what an exciting life, but since Kelly moved to Austin and I don't have a lot of extra money to spend my options are to stay here and do nothing or be in Burleson and do nothing.

Thats about all, nothing too exciting! Mostly I work, watch sports, and play with Ginger!

So much has happened in the past week and I think I'm trying to just live day to day and accept that things will work out the way they are suppose to. Last week I worked some at Hilton, probably not as much as I should have, but it worked out okay. I had 4 job interviews last week. Two of them were dance jobs that were only a few hours a week and the other 2 were full time admin assistant positions. Now I'm just waiting to hear back regarding those positions, but if they don't work out I'm okay with it. I really want to teach dance, but unfortunately if neither of these positions work out I know the chances of me finding a job this school year are not very high. Not to say I won't keep looking, but just trying to be realistic. I did get a promotion at Hilton last week and start training for my new position tomorrow. There are some good and bad things with this promotion though. The bad things are that I can only work the 27.5 hours we are in training, I've been trying to work around 35-40 because I need the money so that is going to be an issue for the next month. Training is only 5 weeks and during that time I don't have to work weekends which is great since my weekends in Sept/Oct are already pretty busy. And as much as I like working from home, I get really bored being home all day and I spend most of the day in my pajamas. Training is at the corporate office from 9-2:30 M-F so I'm really looking forward to having somewhere to actually get ready and go to every day. I've been at Hilton less than 5 months so maybe there will eventually be a full time position that I can get promoted too. Patience is not my best quality, but at this point waiting is all I can do.

In addition to the job interviews adn working I've actually gone out and had a social life. It's been hard lately to get motivated to go out and do things. Partly because of money, partly because I just haven't been in the mood. Thursday night I met Dawn in Plano for dinner and had a great time talking with her about the most random things. My parents went to The Glass Cactus that night and I had planned on going to meet up with them but instead I came back to my apartment and watched college football. Friday after work I went to Sanger to my sis and brother in law's house to have dinner with them and my parents. Oh and to see my niece because it had been a while since I had got to hold her!

Saturday morning I worked and then watched College Football. I am probably much more excited about college football starting then I should be.  Then after I listened to the first half of the Aggie game, Ginger and I went to Dallas to see Erica! We stayed at her apartment for awhile and let the dogs play then we went to dinner and got cupcakes! I love that I live closer to Dallas now so I can go see her whenever I want. My bank account however does not allow me to go out in uptown as much as I would like. 

Last night I went to Frisco to see Kelly and her family and had a great time. I miss getting to see Kelly all the time and her family is so nice. We didn't do much other than eat, hang out, and talk but it was nice to see all of them.  Today I cleaned, did laundry, and went to the grocery store. Nothing exciting but a nice relaxing day.

It has been almost a week since I found out that I didn't have a job at the dance studio anymore and to be honest, I am doing much better than I thought I would be. That is not to say that I am not disappointed, because I still am. I love to teach and I love to dance, I loved going to work every day, but sometimes things just don't work out. And maybe that wasn't where I was suppose to be and I'm trying to come to terms with that. I've always been the "responsible" one, so sometimes I forget that not everyone is like that. I'm not one take risks very often, and unfortunately I did take a risk and it didn't work out. Do I regret it? No. Do I regret staying as long as I did? Maybe. I really wanted things to work, and for whatever reason, it didn't. I have since learned the character of some people are much different than I thought. I don't have a "win at all  cost" attitude, and sometimes in the "dance world" that is the attitude people have. I dance for fun and because I enjoy it. Dancing for pure fun and enjoyment was not what the goal of the studio was, and in the end I think that created a problem. I tried my best, and that is all I can do. So I spent most of thursday afternoon crying because well, that's what I did. Luckily, my parents, dawn, and her mom and I had tickets to see EYB at Winstar on Thursday night. It was a last minute decision, and to be honest it was exactly what I needed. I needed to get out of the house,. So I met my parents in Denton and they drove the rest of the way and we met Dawn and her mom around 7:45. The boys show started around 8, and let me tell you, I could get use to early shows. I hadn't seen eyb since June and that was at lonestar park, not the best show in my opinion. The only other time I have seen them this year was in New York and that was in February. So I was excited to see them. The show was great, I liked that there were seats and that the average age of the crowd wasn't 14. We all had a great time, despite the rude security people and we got to say hi to the guys for a minute. It's funny how the littlest things can make everything okay, and that's what Thursday night was for me. I'd missed those boys.

Friday night I went to dinner in Frisco with Mel and had a great time. It had been awhile since we had seen each other and it was a good night. I did absolutley nothing on Saturday and to be honest that wasn't a good idea but I guess its okay to have one of those days every once in awhile. Sunday morning I went to brunch with some people in Fort Worth and then went to see my grandparents and Dylan for a little while before I had to come back to Lewisville to work.

This week I've been working more hours at Hilton since I don't have anything else to do and have been trying to find another job. I had a job interview on Monday and am still negotiating pay/hours at the moment, so who knows. I also have an interview with a dance studio in Coppell tomorrow. I'm trying to have a little faith that things will work out, but not knowing what I will be doing tomorrow is a little stressful.

Hopefully tomorrow night I'll make it to Hat Tricks to see Sean McConnel and then I think I am going to Dallas on Friday night to see Erica. I'll probably be in Burleson Saturday & Sunday because I have a baby shower to go to but I don't really have much planned. Mostly, I'm just trying to figure out what I'm doing next but things are okay at the moment. I'm just thankful that I was smart enough to know that I needed a back up job in case the dance job didn't work because its paying the bills right now!

Well, I don't have a job at the dance studio anymore. Not really going to say much more than that other than it sucks being lied to and basically used. Some people are just selfish I guess.

Sometimes I wonder if moving to Lewisville was the best decision for me, but to be honest I love having my own place. Yes, I've been spending a lot of time in Burleson when I'm not working, but it is by choice, and that makes it nice. This past weekend I went to my parents because my granddad needed me to work at the vet clinic Saturday morning. It was one of the best weekends I have had in awhile. Friday night my mom was gone so Tommy, grandma, granddad and I went to Grandview to visit my Granny. I don't go see her near enough so it was really good to see her. After that we met my Uncle Keith, Aunt Lisa, and Rachel for dinner. It was good to catch up with them. After that Lacey called so we went over to visit her for awhile and look and see what she got done with the baby room! I'm so excited for her to be having a baby. Only a few more months. Saturday morning I worked then Tommy, mom and I met Ashley, Andy, and Abigail for lunch. (yes we met them in lewisville about .5 mile from my apartment.) Then Saturday night Tommy, granddad, Dawn, and I went to the Rangers/Red Sox game. Even though the ranger lost I had a great time and it had been way too long since I had seen Dawn. Sunday I met my dad for breakfast then spent the afternoon/evening at my grandparents trying to keep Dylan entertained. After dinner I came back to Lewisville and that was about it. I'm just working at Hilton this week, the dance studio is closed for the week. Next week we start our regular schedule, although I'm still not sure exactly when/what I'm teaching. I'm going to try and get caught up on house cleaning, laundry, decorating, and photography stuff while I have my afternoons free. Who knows if that will happen though.

I had the weekend off from both dance and Hilton so I really wanted to do something. Unfortunatley a lot of my friends had things to do this weekend so I wasn't sure what I was going to do. I had talked with my dad about going to the beach house but he wasn't sure if he was going so I tried to make other plans but nothing really worked out. I called on Wednesday to see what his plans were and he was already in Aransas Pass. So after I got off work on Friday I took Ginger to my parents and drove to Aransas Pass. It had been a long time since I had really driving that far, and Im not going to lie, I was exhausted when I got there. We went to dinner and I went to sleep pretty early. Yesterday I got up pretty early and we stayed around the house for a bit and then I went outside. We just got new kayaks so Kenya and I went out in the water for awhile. For anyone that doesn't know, I swore I would never get in a kayak again after my freshman year of high school when I feel off one in the ocean. I've been pretty scared of getting in the water in general since then so for me to get back on a kayak was a big accomplishment for me. I'm not the most graceful person in the world, but I managed to do pretty well and had a great time. After we got done we went to lunch and then drove around for the rest of the afternoon. Last night we went to dinner and I helped clean up the boat and stuf and that was about it. We got up this morning and I came back to Burleson and had dinner with my parents and grandparents and then came back to Lewisville. It wasn't a long enough trip and I'm tired from driving but overall it was a great trip. Back to work with no days off for awhile!

Well, what was suppose to be a relaxing weekend with nothing to do somehow turned into a weekend with a lot to do and I feel as if I could use another day to rest. Even though I don't feel very rested my weekend and the past week have been pretty good. Last weekend I met Dawn at Gilley's to see Wade Bowen and had a great time. I really don't go out to shows much anymore and I think had been around 6 months since I had seen WB. I sometimes forget how much I love his music and was glad I decided to go. I was at my parents last weekend because I had 5 days off work and it was nice to basically do nothing for a few days. Once I got back to Lewisville on Monday I taught 1 dance class and that was it. The rest of the week was pretty normal. Worked at Hilton in the mornings and worked at the dance studio in the evening. I'm still not working much at the dance studio but it is what it is at the moment. THursday night after I got home from teaching and I was exhausted and was going to go to bed early. Instead I got a text from Heather asking if I wanted to go to Denton to see Mike McClure and Wade Bowen. I decided I had time to take a nap before we left so I decided to go. I had so much fun with Heather and although I was really tired the next morning for work but it was completely worth it. I wasn't suppose to work this weekend but I needed the money so I worked yesterday and today for a few hours. Last night I was pretty bored so I called Erica and she came over and we went to dinner and had a great time catching up. We have both been so busy lately we haven't been motivated to get together so I am glad we both had time! I planned on staying home this afternoon after I got off work but instead my dad wanted me to come over for dinner. I don't mind going back to my parents but I feel like that is all I do on the weekends now. So I went to see my grandparents and Dylan, then Dad, Britt, and Kenya and then my parents. My parents just got back from Niagra Falls today so it was good to see them and I had some things at their house that I had left last weekend so it turned out okay. Now time for some sleep and a pretty busy week at work. I am planning on having the weekend off and maybe doing something fun but we will see if that actually happens.

So I said I would write a blog that was a little more "happy" than last time. Well, I've been busy and didn't get around too it but here are just some random things going on in my life right now.

~I went to watch my girls dance at nationals over the weekend. I walked back stage to see them and they all gave me hugs. Then I went to the audience to watch and my little girls who I have not seen in about 2 weeks ran up to me, gave me a hug and sat in my lap. It's the little things, but honestly it made my day. I don't have to go to competition, I choose to because I really enjoy watching the girls dance. It only makes it better when they really appreciate you being there. All of the group dances did very well and placed in the top 10 overall. Saturday was the shoot out finals and both our junior and senior companies competted and the junior company placed 3rd overall. For a 1st year studio it was a very big accomplishment.

~ My parents came home from vacation in Colorado on Sunday so I went to Burleson for the day after I worked so I could see them and my grandparents and they got to play with Ginger.

~ Since I have had most of my afternoons free lately I've been trying to actually do things instead of just sit around and watch tv. I just bought a new photography book and a lightroom (photo editing software) book and have been learning a lot of new things! I also got business cards, maybe one day I'll actually have some clients and make some money with the photography stuff.

~Tonight I'm going to dinner with my coworker and tomorrow after work I'm going to see Ashley and Abigail!

~Only 2 more days of work this week and then I am off until Monday when I have to teach! I'm not sure what I'm doing exactly, maybe going out of town. Really I'm just excited that I get a few days off since I haven't had a day off in over 2 weeks.

~Here are a few pics from the last few weeks.

I have all the time in the world right now so I'm not really sure why I haven't updated this thing other than my life is pretty boring at the moment.

I did get to spend some time with some of my friends and family the past few weeks, but other than that I work and sometimes dance. I would like to say my "jobs" are great right no but that might be a bit of a lie. The Hilton job is what is paying the bills at the moment. It is not my favorite job in the world, but I don't hate it. I guess that is a positive. The dance job. My dream job. Well, it is what it is right now. It's summer and we still don't have very many students, but I am teaching 3 classes a week and absolutely love it. It unfortunately isn't enough hours to make a living right now. Maybe one day it will be, maybe it won't. I at least have another job right? Here's the deal, if you ask me about the dance job I'll tell you, I don't mind advice about it either but in the end this  is my decision. Not everyone gets their dream job and can make a living doing what they love. I'm doing what I have to do right now to make this work. If it never amounts to anything, at least I tried. No, I don't have a lot of extra money to spend right now, but I can pay bills and afford to live. Not that anyone that reads this blog...or anyone at all because I honestly don't know who reads my blog thinks this but its something that has been bothering me for awhile.


I'm not going to lie and say I am perfectly happy with everything but things are okay. I like living by myself, but being in a new town with no friends kinda sucks. I'm not the most social person in the world, but lately I've had nothing to do and I've been bored. The last few months have gone from being busy all the time and not having much time to sleep, to having my afternoons free with nothing to do. I've been working on my photography stuff, working out, swimming and reading books, but that only keeps me occupied for so long. Maybe when summer is over things will get better. Maybe they won't. I have a lease here until June so I guess I'm going to have to figure something out.


Sorry for the somewhat depressing post. That wasn't my intention at all. Maybe I'll write something happy tomorrow.

I try not to make decisions quickly. I try to think of all the possible outcomes before committing to things. I hate failure. I mean I guess no one really likes to fail, but I have a hard time committing to things because I'm afraid I will notsuccessful. One day things seem to be going well, and then the next day things seem to be completely falling apart. I take chances and then they don't seem to work out the way I wanted...or at all. So then I begin to question why I take chances at all. I could have stayed where I was and been okay, but I wanted something better. Now I'm at a point that I don't know what to do. For the time being I guess I will just live life and see what happens because I don't think I have any other options.

I can't believe it has been a year since I graduated from A&M. Some days it seems like 10 years ago and others it seems like yesterday. I miss living in College Station and I miss my job there, but I don't really miss college. Sometimes I think about going back to get my Masters, but then again I don't really know what that would accomplish. It took a while, but I'm finally doing what I want to do. I've wanted to teach dance for as long as I can remember, and the fact that I'm getting to do what I love is enough for me. The Hilton job is nothing glamorous, but I enjoy it and it gives me the flexibility I need. It's definitely been a crazy year since graduation, but I honestly couldn't have asked for anything better.

Today is my step sister Ashley's birthday so my parents came to visit and we met Ashely and Andy for lunch yesterday. Then my parents came to help me hang some things in my apartment. Tommy also fixed my porch so Ginger can go outside. It is finally starting to look like an apartment as opposed to a place I sleep with boxes everywhere. This is also the first weekend since I moved in that I have even been here on the weekend, and it has been nice to just relax. I'm going to dinner with Dawn later and then I have another busy week of work. Then Saturday I am going to the Rangers game and the Wade is playing afterward. Music, Friends, and Baseball....sounds like a good way to spend the weekend to me! :)

Busy...Busy...Busy

I guess it is a good thing I like to be busy, because I haven't had much free time. Nothing really new going on, except maybe another job. I think that will be 4 jobs or 5 if you count photography. Luckily, I love my jobs. I like going to work, even if one the jobs requires me to get up at 5:30am. I get a little break in the middle of the day, but usually that is spent working on dance stuff, photography stuff, or paying bills!

This past weekend I was busier than I've been in a really long time, but it was good...except I was sick. I went to my grandparents Friday night and played with Dylan and then Saturday I got up to go watch him play tball. Well, Dylan has a mind of his own and wouldn't get out of the car, so unfortunatley I didn't get to see him play. After I left the ball park, I went home to get ready for the wedding I was photographing. It was the first wedding that I have ever photographed and I was beyond nervous. I haven't edited too many of the pics yet, but so far they turned out pretty well. I'm also in the process of working on a photography website. I don't have a lot of extra time right now to design, so who knows when it will be finished. Saturday night I didn't have any plans so I went to Kennedale to watch the company girls compete. I love watching them dance and the parents are great so it was a fun night. Sunday was Ashley's baby shower in Fort Worth then I went back to my parents to get Ginger and came back to my apartment.

Nothing unusual this week, Hilton in the morning, Dance Studio at night, and working on the photo site in my free time!

My weekend didn't go as planned at all, but it ended up being okay I guess. Friday I was off work all day so I had planned on going to see Ruby at the hospital. Unfortunately she was very sick because of the chemo, so I didn't get to go visit. I had lunch plans with someone, but they wouldn't answer my calls or texts. So I just went to see my great grandmother for awhile. I hadn't seen her in a few weeks, so it was good to see her. After I left the nursing home, I went to play with Dylan. He really wasn't in the mood to play so I didn't stay very long. Tomorrow is Tommy's birthday so we went to eat with Ashley and Andy Friday night. I worked Saturday morning at the vet clinic then went and watched my dance girls at competition. I had planned on coming back to Lewisville and going to see Sean McConnell but I couldn't find anyone to go with me so I just stayed in Burleson. Today I had lunch with my mom and then came back to Lewisville and unpacked some more stuff and did laundry. I hate when things don't go as planned or when I can't count on someone, but I guess I should learn to deal with it because it has been happening a lot lately. At least I love my job and I guess it wasn't like I did anything exciting while I was living in Burleson.

Randomness from the last few weeks...

• I've been at my apartment for a week now.
• I love living by myself again, but I do miss my family.
• Ginger is adjusting okay to the apartment. Her favorite place to be is under my bed.
• I finally have internet at my apartment. And Cable.
• I've got most of my boxes unpacked.
• Now I can decorate...to bad that requires money.
• I still love my dance job.
• I start my job at Hilton on Wednesday.
• Hat Tricks is a mile from my apartment. Jonathan Tyler & The Northern Lights are playing on the 20th and Sean McConnell is playing on the 24th. Now to find people to go see shows with me.
• I don't know the next free weekend I have. I guess being busy is good.
• I'm photographing my first wedding in 2 weeks, I'm a little nervous.
• I'm still working for my granddad on Saturday's. I really miss my coworkers. :(
• Less than 2 months until my niece is here!!
• Lacey is having a boy in November. I think I'll call him my nephew instead of trying to figure out how he will actually be related to me.
• Kelly is moving to Austin next week. I'm sad, but I can't wait to come visit! 
• Next on my list of things to do after I get unpacked and settled here is to find friends here.

Life has been crazy busy lately but I guess that is a good thing. Just a few updates.

~I still love my job at LCDC, I can't tell you how awesome the parents and girls are. It is my dream job.

~I got another part time job. It's not the most glamorous job, but for right now it is perfect. After 6 weeks of training I will be able to make my own schedule and work from home. Hours at the dance studio are very random right now, so it should work out perfect.

~I'm moving to Lewisville. Next weekend. I wish more people were excited for me but I guess all I can do is make myself happy and then figure out the rest later.

~Kelly's moving to Austin....2 weeks after I move to Lewisville which is 10 min away from where she lives now. I'm a little sad, but really it just means I'll be spending most of my weekends in Austin. It would probably be a bad idea for us to live that close together anyway.

~I never blogged about the weekend in Austin, but it was a nice vacation. Kelly and I had a great time with my parents at the JJW show, then got to spend some time with D, then went to Salado and spent the day with Kelly's parents. I also wanted to say that I'm sorry we didn't make it to the acoustic show. There were so many people that we wanted to see, but because of the lack of sleep the week before...and saturday night we felt that it was best for us to come home since we both had to be at work at 8:30am on Monday. Again, I'm sorry we didn't get to see everyone, but we would not have been much fun anyway.

~Dylan turned 7 on Friday. We had his birthday party today with Easter and had a lot of fun. I can't believe he is 7. I'm also a little sad that I will be moving away from him. There are alwasy weekends...I'lll only be an hour away.

~This is my last week at the Vet. I'm probably going to keep working Saturday's for awhile, but as much as I've been wanting to move and get a full time job I'm sad. Of course I love seeing my grandparents everyday, but I love the 2 other people I work with. This isn't going to be an easy week.

"See your washed out faded smiles. when I look back on this place, all that held me as a child, is begging me to stay, but I'm gone."

What's been going on...

I started my 2nd week at my new job and am absolutely loving it. Today was my first day to teach and my girls are adorable. The drive there isn't so bad, the drive home is not fun. I'm ready to move. I'm still working mornings at the Vet for now, but I'm not sure how long that is going to last. Tomorrow night I'm working some and then going to dinner with Kelly. I'm probably working again on Wednesday cause the Company girls are going to competition on Saturday and are having a dress rehearsal. Thursday night, Blu Sanders is playing @ Opening Bell in Dallas and I'm excited. It's been awhile since I've seen him so it should be fun. Friday I don't really have much planned other than packing; then after work on Saturday I'm riding to Austin with my parents!! Then I'm meeting up with Kelly and we are going to see JJW and go out for the night. Sunday I'm not sure. I had planned on making the Acoustic show, but at the moment I'm not sure if that is going to happen. I think Kelly and I are just going to see how the weekend goes. Is it time to go to Austin yet?

New Job....

Well, most of you know I have a new job but those that don't I now have a job in Lewisville. I will be working at LC Dance Center as the Preschool Directo/Office Manager. Basically I am teaching Ballet/Tap/Jazz for ages 2-8 and then working in the office some. It's part time but it is exactly what I want to do right now. Hopefully by the fall I will be teaching between 20-25 hours a week and should be making the same amount of money that I would be at some of the full time positions I've been applying too. A lot of people don't understand my reasoning for this and don't think it is what I should be doing, but I have to take that chance. For now I am only going to be working a few days a week until things get a little busier and I find another part time job. I've also looked at apartments, but for the time being I am going to work part time for my granddad and live with my parents.

Home on a saturday night...

I was going to Denton to have dinner with my sis Brittany and get my hair cut but she ended up having to work late so I decided to stay home and relax. Tuesday night my mom, tommy, and I went to dinner with Ashley and Andy then went to Rockin Rodeo to see Mike acoustic. Just like most acoustic shows, I had a great time. The new songs were great, it was nice to hear some old songs like "Back of my Mind" and I of course liked the covers he did, "Lord I Hope This Day Is Good" and "La Cienega Just Smiled." Not much else to say about that show, but I think an acoustic show was exactly what I needed.  We got home around 2:30 and work the next morning wasn't fun, but it was well worth it.

 

Thursday was my mom's birthday so after work we went to dinner and then I left and went to meet Kelly in Grapevine to see Rob Baird and No Justice. Another good night with great friends. It's always an interesting night when we are at the Gaylord and Thursday was no exception. The bands were great I got to see several people that I hadn't seen in awhile. I ended up leaving pretty early (okay not early, but earlier than everone else) and got home around 2:30 again. Lesson of the week...I can't go out during the week and stay out past 2 and still function. Work yesterday was worse than work on Wednesday. I guess that explains why I am okay with staying home this weekend.

  

I am still negotiating a hours and pay with the dance studio so hopefully I can work something out and have job in the next few days!

Less than 1 week until NYC!!!!

Dance...

I've been dancing since I was 3. I've taken a few breaks over the years because of injuries and college, but I honestly can't imagine my life without dancing. I have always wanted to have my studio one day, but right now that really can't happen. Since being back from College Station, I haven't danced or taught but I decided to start looking for jobs again. Being that I started looking in January makes things a little difficult. Most dance studios schedules are the same as school. Randomly looking one day, I saw a job posting for a full time preschool dance director/ office manager for a new studio (the studio is in the process of being built). It seemed like my perfect job. I love working with kids and that has been what I've missed most about not working at a studio. So I applied and then eventually went and interviewed for the job. The interview went great and I really liked the director/owner. I've talked to her several times since the interview and went and taught a trial class last night for a few girls. They were adorable and so much fun! So now I wait...and well that is the hard part but I feel good about the class and interview so whatever happens happens. Weather or not I get the job, I'm going to keep looking for dance jobs because right now, that is really what I want to do. And eventually get a photographs website started and get some clients. If I could make a living teaching dance and taking pictures...I would be pretty happy.

Tonight I'm going to see Mike acoustic. Tomorrow morning is going to suck but a little acoustic music is what I need right now!

Snow!!

It's been snowing all day and it has been a lot of fun, here are a few pics! As much fun as it has been though, I'm ready for warm weather! :)

Since this is my blog, I'm going to complain for a minute. I don't like to complain a lot, but these few things have been bothering me.

Complaint 1: I get asked all the time why I don't go out or why I only hang out with a few people. Well, to tell you the truth, the reason is because I either don't have anyone to go with me or nobody asks me to go out with them. I realize I can go wherever I want, but going out by myself pretty much sucks. I would like to say it doesn't hurt my feelings when my "friends" are doing something and don't bother to ask me to go, but to be honest it does. I realize this works both ways, but I'm always the one to call and ask something so sometimes it is nice to be asked. I also realize there are certain times that it was either an accident, or just something they had planned with other people. I'm not talking about those times. I'm talking about every weekend plans that don't involve me.

Complaint 2: Why does someone just decide one day to not be your friend. Maybe not stop being your friend, but stop calling or texting or anything. I realize people grow apart, I realize social media has kind of made it seem like you know what is going on in peoples lives, and I understand everyone gets busy. But it gets frustrating when I'm the only one that puts any effort into talking to people. I know there are some people that I should probably talk to more often that I don't, but it seems like since I graduated from college that everyone stopped caring.

Complaint 3: I've never understood why people base who they are friends with by who their friends are. Just because you don't necessarily like a person I hang out with doesn't mean we can't be friends. Right?   For example, I went out somewhere a few weeks ago with some friends and acquaintances. I can't tell you how many people asked me why I was out with particular people. Does it really matter? Most of the time it is because they are doing something that I want to do and I don't mind hanging out with them. Are you going to stop being my friend because I am friends with someone else? I feel like I'm in high school sometimes and the whole "we can't be friends with her cause she doesn't hang out with the right crowd." If that is the case, maybe we were never friends.

I am the same person I've always been. Maybe people just don't like hanging out with me and to be honest most of the time I'm okay with that. I guess what really upsets me is when people I really thought were my friends start treating me this way. Did I do something to offend anyone? Is it because I don't live in College Station? It seems like ever since I moved back to Burleson, nobody remembers that I'm here. Maybe I'm over thinking all of this a little but I wouldn't mind moving and starting over. That is part of my reasoning for wanting to move to Austin although I don't know if that will ever happen.

It has been 23 days since I updated this thing. I have 3 unfinished posts that for some reason I forgot about. Oh well, for the few of you that actually read this thing, here are a few updates.

~ Nothing new to report regarding a job. I am still working for my granddad and its still okay. I do have an interview this week in Lewisville for a preschool dance director though, so maybe that will work out. The only thing is that it is in Lewisville. That is an hour from Burleson, so it would have to be full time or stable hours so I could have another job too.

~I went back to the doctor and got another cordisone injection and my back has been pretty good. The doctor also told me I could dance/exercise as much as I felt like doing. I've missed dancing so I started clogging again at some place in Lake Worth that my parents use to go to. It is nothing too hard, but its fun and I get to dance so I'm happy. I've also lost 10 lbs since January, so that is another plus to getting to dance again.

~My cousin got married. She was not getting married until April, but when my great grandmother got sick she decided that she wanted her there so we had a wedding in a week. In the nursing home. I was in the wedding so my mom took most of the pictures, but I'm working on sorting and editing right now. I will probably post pics from that later this week.

~I haven't been to that many concerts this month but I have been to a few. Dawn, Kelly, and I went to see No Justice at Gilley's a few weeks ago and had a great time. After Lacey's wedding I met Kelly at Woody's to see Live Oak Decline but didn't stay very long because I needed to go meet up with the bridesmaids at Overtime to see the Kyle Bennet Band. Then last Thursday Kelly, Lacey, and I went to Denton to see Wade and that was an interesting night. It was good to see people that I don't get to see very often though.

~Other than that I've just been busy with work, looking for a job, editing pictures, and trying to spend some time with my friends. Here are a few pictures from the past few weeks!

2009....

This past year was a good year, music, friends, family, GRADUATION!! Here are some highlights.

January
~ I spent NYE with my dad and Kenya at our beach house in Aransas Pass. Not the most exciting night, but it was fun.
~I started my last semester at A&M. I only took 2 classes so it was a pretty easy semester. 
~Ryan James at Gilley's with Dawn and Deidre
~ My cousin Brian got married
~I started teaching dance again and absolutely loved it. I taught Lyrical once a week and helped with several different clogging classes.
~Apparently 2 jobs weren't enough so I interned at the Arctic Wolf Ice Center and helped with PR and marketing, I also got to help with the Aggie Hockey games and had a great time.
~ I didn't go to many shows in January but I did get to see Pat Green acoustic at Hastings. It was in the middle of the day and there were not many people at all but it was an awesome show.

February
~EYB at Harry's...enough said.
~ Aggie Basketball
~ I worked a lot of Aggie Hockey games so I didn't go out much on the weekends
~I got a new car from my Dad and Kenya, a 2009 red eclipse!

March
~Spring Break was one of the best I've had in awhile. Dawn came to College Station and we got to see RJ at Lake Bryan, then we drove to my beach house in Aransas Pass and got to see Wade one night and EYB and RRB the next night. 
~EYB at House of Blues in Dallas...one of my favorite shows of the year

April
~Django in FW with my parents
~D @ Schotzi's...those nights were always fun
~Jack and Django at Harry's. Probably my favorite show of the year.
~ Mike acoustic at The Fox and El Campo. He even played me La Cienega. :)

May
~No Justice at Gilley's with Heather and Dawn
~I GRADUATED from Texas A&M!! Best moment of 2009!
~I got a new Nikon D90 camera and absolutely love it!
~Django at Woody's
~Rangers game with Erica and Brandon
~Dance Recital...the first time I had performed at a recital since high school
~I had to quit my job at A&M which I hated
~I moved out of my apartment in College Station back to Burleson with my parents

June
~I didn't even get back home and my granddad called and asked if I wanted to come work at his vet clinic. I love the people I work with and although its not what I had planed, it is an awesome job.
~I went back to College Station 2 weeks later for Mike acoustic at The Hall. Awesome night. Best of the 3 acoustic shows I got to see. I even got to hear La Cienega again.
~Ryan James at Woody's with Susanna. It was his last full band show and it was bittersweet.
~Vacation with my parents to Nashville. Getting to hang out with Andrew and randomly seeing Blu was a lot of fun.

July
~My mom's friend Marcy and 2 of her kids came to visit for a few days and we went to the Dallas World Aquarium
~My mom, Susie, Clint, and Nikki started taking a photography class at UTA.
~Megly came to visit and we went and toured the new Cowboys stadium
~I went on a "photowalk" in Fort Worth at the Museum district and took some awesome pitures.
~EYB at lonestar park with Dawn! Even though there were a lot of people (18,000) it was a great show. 
~Greenfest in Austin
~Drew Kennedy at Overtime.

August
~Greg and Kristi got married in Brenham
~Django at Woody's...another of my favorite shows from the year. Mostly because Kelly, who I hadn't seen in 2 years, was at the show and we hung out till 3 in the morning!
~Django at the Glass Cactus with Kelly. Loooong but fun night. The text I got the next morning, "Please tell me you are alive" explains it all.

September
~I didn't do much other than work in September and hang out with Kelly
~I got a puppy!!!! I've been saying for years that I wanted a puppy but I decided I didn't need one while I was in college. Well, since I moved back home and my parents didn't want a dog in the house I couldn't get one. However, my grandparents are the best and got me a yorkie for my birthday. Ginger is so cute and fun!

October
~I turned 23 and went to dinner with Kelly for my birthday
~ Kelly and I went to Austin to celebrate my birthday and stayed with her friends Lorretta and Kevin. We also went to the breast cancer benefit in NB and got to see D and lots of other people. We ended the night eating with Greg and D and then came home after a few hours of sleep. One of the best trips I've been on in awhile.
~Jason Boland at Gilley's with Kelly and Sarah, another intersting night.
~EYB opened for Gary Allan in Dallas and Dawn, Deidre and I had 5th row seats. I ended up leaving before GA and went to Woody's to see Live Oak Declin with Kelly.
~I found out I'm going to be an Aunt!! :) 
~ Aggie Football game in College Station. I've really missed that town.

November
~Another roadtrip to Austin. This time to see Django at The Oasis. It was a great night with great friends but it was a little sad because it was D's last show for awhile.
~David Cote and Vallajo at Trees with Kelly, her sister and brother-in-law.
~Thanksgiving with the family and I even got to see Renee and Christy!
~EYB at Palladium with Dawn, Michelle, and Erica. Fun night despite the "twitter" problems. haha.
~ Christy's baby shower

December
~One of my really good friends from high school, Keri, got married. It was really good to see a lot of people that I hadn't seen in awhile.
~ NJ at overtime
~JJW at Gruene with my parents and Susanna.
~ I got to hang out with D in Gruene
~I helped my grandparents with Dylan alot
~I ended the year playing Wii with Sunny and Cade and watching tv

2009 was an eventful year for me. Moving from College Station to Burleson with my parents was one of the hardest things I've had to do but I'm thankful that I have a place to live and a job that I love. I really would like a more permenant job, and I'm still looking, but its nice to have something now until something works out. I like to have things planed out and this year has been far from what I planned but I've learned to accept things as they happen and make the best out of each situation. I am hoping 2010 will be a great year and I've already got several things that I'm looking forward to!