Things are just a little crazy around my house, but nothing that I can't handle at the moment. Last week I had plans to go out several nights but that didn't really happen. Tuesday Kelly and I went shopping at Grapevine Mills and had planned on going to see Ice at the Gaylord but ended up just walking around the Gaylord and talking. It was a fun day and I even got some Christmas shopping done! I've never liked going to shows by myself, but No Justice was playing an acoustic show at Overtime (which is less than a mile from my house) so I decided to go. It was pretty crowded, so I ended up finding a seat in the back and had a great time. I love acoustic shows and this was no exception. It was really a great night and it was nice to go out and listen to music. It was over pretty early and after I talked to Steve for a bit I went home. I like shows that are close to my house, I get home at 1 instead of 3. I just worked the rest of the week, nothing too exciting.

Saturday morning I worked and then went to Gruene with my parents to see Jerry Jeff Walker. I've been to Gruene to see JJW the last few years and it is one of my favorite concerts of the year. After we got to the hotel and I got ready we (my mom, tommy, and Susanna) met some of my mom's cousins for dinner at the Gristmill. After dinner they went to find a place to sit at Gruene Hall and Susanna and I went and hung out with Django to pre drink and watch the Heisman Awards show. After listening to some random Ipod music and some shots we decided to go find my parents. D was playing with his dad, so we got there in plenty of time to see the show. I spent most of the night wandering around and just listening to the music then towards the end of the night some guys let me stand on some benches and I had a great view of the stage. Jerry Jeff usually starts at 9, so the show was over and we were back at the hotel pretty early. Sunday I woke up way too early and couldn't go back to sleep but we didn't end up leaving till around 10:30. My parents like to drive backroads home...which is okay with me sometimes but it took forever and I wanted to be home. After we got home I went and got Ginger from my grandparents and came home and did nothing the rest of the evening. Today was my day off, so I went shopping and finished buying all my Christmas presents and even got them wrapped! I don't really have plans the rest of the week, just working and maybe trying to find something to do this weekend.

I'm not sure if it was the wedding I went yesterday or just the people I saw...but it really made me think about life and the last few years. Since I left the wedding, I have been in a strange mood. The wedding I went to was for one of my best friends from high school. I say best friend...but I haven't seen her since the day we graduated. As a matter of fact, I haven't seen most of the people that were really good friends of mine in high school since graduation. There were several things that happened during high school that caused our friendships not to be as strong, but I guess we all just went our separate ways and things for the most part were never that bad. I know I can't change the past but I sometimes wonder "what if." Was it dance? Was it music? Was it me? I guess it was a combination of all of those things, but it really isn't an easy concept to grasp. I kind of miss some of those friends.

In 4 years so much has happened, and although I'm not exactly where I would like to be in life or doing what I want to be doing, I can't complain. Yesterday was a little hard though. Most of my friends were either married or in a serious relationship and had steady jobs. I'm not saying that I am completely unhappy with things right now, but living with my parents and working for my granddad is really not the ideal situation. It's been 7 months....and although I say I'm okay with things, this is not where I want to be. My parents and grandparents are great, I love the people I work with, and I have things pretty good. So to me it almost seems wrong to be complaining, I could have no place to live and no job, so for that I'm grateful. For so long, things seemed to be working out, and now things aren't really what I imagined. The other thing I worry about is that I'm not doing anything in the field I really want to be working in, so now I have 7 months of experience for what?   Then that question of where do you want to be? To be honest, I have no idea.

I really can't believe it is December already. I spent most of the day shopping and decided I'm doing the rest online. I love to shop, but shopping at Christmas time is just a little crazy for me. Thanksgiving was great. I got to spend a lot of time all of my family and for the most part things were good. I also got to see Renee and Christy some too which was great. One of the many things I miss about living in College Station is being close enough to Houston or Austin to just visit...not as easy from Burleson. I had both Thursday and Friday off which was nice and then Friday night I met Dawn, Erica, and Erica's family at Palladium for EYB and David Nail. It had been awhile since I had seen just an EYB show so that was fun and I've listened to David Nail for awhile now and he was amazing live. Great night, great friends, and great music...I couldn't ask for much more. I had to work Saturday morning which was a little tough but luckily it was only for 4 hours. Then I went to a baby shower for my friend Christy with my grandmother. It was good to see her and I can't wait for Britton to get here in a few weeks! Sunday I really didn't do much then went to my grandparents to eat Thanksgiving leftovers. Not much planned the rest of the week except going to a wedding on Saturday for one of my friends from high school.

I try and update this blog, but I feel like I'm writting the same things over and over. Oh well, here is a recap of the weekend.

~Friday night I was suppose to go to dinner with my cousin but that didn't end up working out so I stayed home and tried to get caught up on some things around the house. I like to have plans on Friday nights, but I have to work Saturday mornings so unless it is something I really want to do, I have been *trying* to stay home.

~Sometime Friday night, someone broke the windows at my office so that was kind of a mess. They didn't break in or steal anything, they just broke the glass. I guess things could have been a lot worse. So working Saturday morning was a little strange because they had all the windows and doors boarded up. After work I had lunch plans but those didn't end up working out either. My parents went to Gurene for the weekend so I came home, watched college football, and stayed around the house. I had plans to go to Tree's later that night and decided that I was going to take Ginger to my grandparent's so I didn't have to worry about when I came back home. After that, I came home and got ready and drove to meet Kelly in Frisco at her sister and brother-in-law's house. After they all got ready we went to Deep Elum to see Kelly's friend David Cote who was opening for Vallejo. We had a great time and didn't get home too late but I decided I didn't really want to drive back home so I stayed in Frisco with Kelly.

~Sunday we woke up way too early and hung out for a bit. Then met up with Kelly's family for lunch and I went to get Ginger from my grandparents and then home. I'm not even sure I was home 5 minutes before I was asleep. I slept most of the afternoon and that was about it.

~Last night my stepdad and I met Kelly in Dallas for the Stars game which was great! It had been about a year since I had gone to a game so I was excited. I sometimes wish I lived in Dallas so I could go to games all the time. The stars ended up winning which always makes the game better.

~Tuesday's is my day off and usually I end up doing nothing but I actually got a lot accomplished this morning. We are having Thanksgiving dinner with my family here tomorrow night so I'm going to spend the rest of the night cleaning.

I have a lot of things to do this week and a lot of places to go but it should be fun. Thursday I have 3 Thanksgiving's to go to and then I'm planning on watching the A&M/texas game somewhere. Friday I get to go take pictures of some friends for their parents Christmas present and then Friday night I'm going to see David Nail and EYB at Palladium with Dawn and Erica and her family. I have to work Saturday morning which I'm not looking forward too but oh well. Then after work I'm going to Weatherford with my grandmother for my friend Christy's baby shower.

I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Here are just a few updates from the past few weeks.

~ 2 weeks ago my family and I went to College Station for the weekend. We didn't really do much other than go to the game, but it was fun to be back at Kyle Field...it kinda made me miss college.

~Last weekend I went to Austin to meet up with Kelly and her friends and we had a great time. Friday night we went to The Oasis to see Django play and well those nights are always interesting. The last time we were in Austin, D told us that the Oasis show would be his last show for awhile and there was no way we were going to miss that. The rest of the weekend we spent recovering, shopping, and eating. Even though we didn't do a whole lot, it was a fantastic weekend.

~ Looking for jobs sucks. I haven't heard much back from anywhere. It is so frustrating. I am thankful that I have a part time job but I'm ready to have a full time position and live by myself.

~Ginger is getting so big...okay she is only 2.5 pounds but she has grown so much since I've had her. She is still as cute as can be and so much fun.

~I don't understand people. I know I'm not perfect, but it really frustrates me that people I thought were my friends treat me as if I'm the most horrible person ever. Just because I'm friends with a certain person or like a certain band isn't really a reason to not like me...or maybe it is because that's what I feel like some people base their opinion of me on. Oh well, I really am happy with my life for the most part, I've gone out more and done more social things the last few months and its been fun.

~My back is still not great, I am feeling better but there are times when I am in a lot of pain. Hopefully I can get this all figured out soon because it really is frustrating to not be able to dance...or really just live life without it hurting so much.

~I'm sad that I don't have plans for this weekend, I got really use to being out of town. The next few weeks I have several things to look forward too..a wedding, going to a Stars game with Kelly, Erica, and Brandon, Thanksgiving, and  David Cote at Trees.I guess it might be good to stay home this weekend and rest.

Since I got back from Austin last week I've been pretty busy. I've been pretty happy with the way things have been lately. If I start to think about how it has been 5 months since I graduated and that I am living at home with a part time job, I get upset but right now I'm doing all I can as far as looking for a job is concerned.

Sometimes I like to take a break from going out, seeing live music, and hanging out with friends, but honestly that is when I am the happiest. I don't think I could have asked for a better weekend...well minus a little drama. Friday night I met Kelly at Gilley's for JB&S. I really enjoyed the show and had a great time spending time with her and Sarah. I miss nights like that, until I remember I have to wake up and go to work the next morning. Oh well, it was totally worth it.

After only about 3 hours of sleep I woke up and went to work for a few hours. Luckily we were busy so I didn't have time to think about how tired I was. After work I had to go run some errands then went to dinner with my Dad and uncle Donnie. When I got home I took a 45 min nap although I think I could have slept the rest of the night. After I played with Ginger, I left to go to Dallas again. I met Dawn and Deidre at 6 at Superpages.com center (I miss it being called Starplex). I got there just as the boys were about to start. It had been awhile since I had seen EYB and I had a great time. After EYB finished I hung around for a little bit and talked with everyone then around 9 I left to go to Woody's. (yes I left before Gary Allan went on) I met Kelly at Woody's to see Live Oak Decline and I had an awesome time. Oh and I got to listen to the Aggie's beat texas tech on the way to the bar!! Whoop!!

Sunday I pretty much did nothing, I think I finally got out of bed around 5 and went to my grandparents. Monday was just another day at work and then today I went to Dallas where Erica works to help them out with something and it might actually turn in to a job. It scares me a little to think about actually being in Dallas and doing something I'm really not that familiar with. Things happen for a reason though so I'm just going to see how it all works out.

I'm excited to finally have plans on the weekends. I hated when I had nothing to do but stay home and work, especially when a lot of my friends were out doing stuff. This weekend I'm going to College Station with my parents and going to the Aggie game on Saturday. I'm really looking forward to being back in CS. Then the next weekend Kelly and I are going to Austin again to go see D on Friday night and who knows what else.

Austin

I had the best time in Austin with Kelly. We really didn't do a whole lot but it was nice to have a break from things.  Saturday after we got off work we headed to Austin and after a stop at her parents we got to her friends apartment sometime late in the afternoon. We were hungry so we went and ate at El Arroyo, had some margaritas then went and drove around Austin. Then we went and saw some of Kelly's friends and called it a night. Sunday we both woke up way too early and decided to get breakfast and shopped in San Marcos for a little while. Then we went to  the breast cancer benefit around 2. We stayed most of the day and had a great time other than a little drama. We were both hungry but decided we would go back to Austin and ended up going to eat with Greg and D. It was a great night and it was just nice to get to hang out with them. I forgot how much fun we all use to have. Then we went back to Kelly's friends for the night then woke up and drove home. I didn't want to leave, it was so nice to get away from everything for awhile and do something different.  Random quotes from the weekend...

~I'm not drinking at all this weekend!
~Do we share a brain?
~So why didn't you reply to my text? We said you w...ere going to say you never got it.
~So let's discuss life plans.
~Do I really give lots of hugs when I drink?
~Alright...Alright...those are the only words to the song.
~Does he know yet? Umm..yes.
~All we have had to eat is breakfast food but who cares lets get donuts!
~I bet we could talk in song lyrics the rest of the drive and make complete sense.
~Oh I forgot about that night...*high-five*
~Why doesn't she just leave? It would make this song so much easier.
~So this lady came up and said the stage was on fire...Texas On My Mind and we're out!
~Should I be creeped out or take it as a compliment? You should be creeped out! ...Oh, I took it as a compliment...
~Hey remember when we made out? What city was that?
~Seriously...you need to walk up to the front with me RIGHT NOW!
~This place has whiskey AND a playground?!
~When it rains...x500 spins on the radio
~Lord she never would have done it if she hadn't gotten drunk...if she hadn't started running with a traveling man
~Is that Kelly? As in Kelly-Kelly?
~So there's this picture of you on Galleywinter...
~Is your iphone cover maroon? Umm..no its purple.

Here is the only pic I took of us...Kelly took the rest and I'm a little scared to see them.

Ginger

Most of you that read this already know about my new puppy and have seen my pics on fb or twitter but here they are again and the story behind how I got my puppy! I was at work on Saturday and we really weren't doing much of anything. Then about 11, Wendy, one of our clients came in with a little yorkie. She has a few yorkies, so I figured it needed something. Well turns out the puppy was mine. It was in a cute basket with an A&M pillow that she had made and my granddad handed me my puppy. They said they had never heard me so speachless before. I was pretty much in shock. So apparently they had been planning this for awhile and my mom couldn't say no to both me and my granddad so now I have Ginger. Oh and my mom and tommy love her, they spoil her more than I do!  She is 3 months old and weighs 1.9 lbs! :) Oh and they were calling her Ginger and well I couldn't come up with anything else I liked better so that is her name. Oh and I had plans to be out of town most of the weekends in October...looks like that isn't going to happen. I think I've decided to not go to Houston the weekend of the 9th and see Django. :( Me and Kelly  are going to Austin on the 16th so I'll probably see him then so whatever. Going to Austin is really all I have planned right now for my birthday, but I may come up with something else soon. Oh and this weekend is the A&M/Arkansas game at the new Cowboys Stadium!! :) Now here are a few pics of Ginger.

I worked, applied for jobs, and didn't do much last week. The most exciting thing that I did last week was go to the movies, dinner, and shopping with Kelly. We had so much fun! I love hanging out with her, its nice to get away from my normal every day life. Hopefully we are going on a roadtrip soon, we only planned a few! Here are a few pics from our crazy adventures in Grapevine! ( I really don't know that we should have gone back to that town, but we've had some fun times there!)

Wednesday I had a job interview in Dallas and it went really well but the job doesn't really pay enough for me to live so I'm still in the process of applying. Thursday I had a doctors appointment and he told me that I really didn't need to be driving long distances until we figured out what to do about my back so I ended up canceling my plans to go to Houston for the 2nd weekend in a row. :( Since I canceled my plans I didn't have anything to do. I worked some and watched sports the rest of the weekend. Now, I love watching sports, but I really needed something to do this weekend. I hate being bored. Next weekend...no plans again. Is it October yet?? I have plans almost every weekend then and it's my birthday!!! Nothing much going on this week either, other than I have a phone interview on Wednesday with a place in Marble Falls!

So it rained most of the weekend therefore my plans didn't work out like I had planned. It ended up being a pretty relaxing weekend for the most part, I helped mom clean the house some (more like I unpacked some boxes since it looks like I'm not moving anytime soon), and I got to play with Dylan. Oh and I even went outside in the rain and played with Dylan. For those of you that really know me know that is not something I like to do at all. Outside.Rain.Mud. I however didn't melt. haha. I also went to my dad's for a bit cause my stepmom's birthday was last week and I hadn't gone to see her. I took my camera to my dad's and my grandparents and got a few good pics of my dogs and Dylan swinging and playing in the rain.

My dog Max...

My dog Annabelle...

Dylan swinging...

Dylan stomping in the water...

He is really not an easy kid to photograph...

This week should be pretty busy/fun, work tomorrow, tuesday is my day off and I'm going to hang out with Kelly, Wednesday I have a job interview in Dallas, Thursday I'm getting another steroid injection in my back, Friday I'm working, and then Saturday I'm planning on going to Houston! I hope you all have a wonderful week!

118 days...

It has been almost 4 months since I graduated. It seems like yesterday, but then again it seems like forever ago. Am I happy with things right now? For the most part. Am I doing what I thought I would be doing? No. So now I'm somewhere between happy, content, confused, scared, and unsure. I don't really know where to go from here. I have gotten use to this life, but I feel like this isn't all I am capable of doing. I was okay with living with my parents and working for my granddad this summer because I knew they really needed help at the office. There was no reason for me to live by myself when I didn't have a full time job, so even though living with my parents isn't what I wanted to do, it was the only thing that made sense. I am tired of applying for jobs and getting rejection letters, but I keep trying. I went to dinner with Erica and Brandon last night, it only made me want to move. When we lived in College Station, Erica and I would see each other almost every day. Now, I'm lucky if we get together once a month. I hate that. I know things could be so much worse right now, which is why I try to be greatful for what I do have, but it's so frustrating sometimes. Every day at work someone asks me if I'm stayng there permanatley or what can of job I'm looking for and I hate that I don't have an answer. I absolutley hate the unknown, I like for things to be organized, planned, and scheduled and that is not what my life has been like at all. Who knows what is going to happen tomorrow, I guess I'll go to work, come home, apply for jobs, go to sleep, and start over the next day. If only Erica and I had the money to open our dance studio....I know its wishful thinking although we did talk about a few things last night and can hopefully start serioulsy getting a plan soon.

Music

This weekend I had planned on helping my grandmother with Dylan while my granddad and tommy went hunting but they ended up not going so I stayed home most of the weekend. Although I was bored most of the weekend I got some rest and got my room a little organized.

So I've been somewhat bored with music lately. When I turn on my ipod I almost always skip through several songs before deciding on something to listen too. Even then I usually only listen to a portion of the song. Sometimes it drives me crazy that I can't just listen to a song. I mean, its my Ipod, the songs are what I put on there to listen so why am I not wanting to listen? I think I've gotten so use to listening to new stuff that I forgot about older songs (some that really aren't that old.) So while I was home this weekend I listened to music a lot, and have been trying to just listen to whatever comes on my Ipod. It's been kinda fun, I've listened to a lot of songs that I forgot I really liked. So here's a random list of what I've been listening to a lot this weekend.

New stuff I'm listening too:
Jack Ingram "Big Dreams and High Hopes"
Radney Foster "A Little Revival"
Blu Sanders- "Racing My Shadow"
Bonnie Bishop- "Take Care of Me"
David Nail- "I'm About To Come Alive"
Jason Castro-"Let's Just Fall In Love Again"

Other stuff I'm listening too:
Eli Young Band- "Back of My Mind"
Live Oak Decline- "Coffee and Cars"
Wade Bowen- "Lay It All On You"
Randy Rogers Band- "Lost and Found"
Pat Green- "Dancehall Dreamer"
Blu Sanders- "Maybe I"
Sarah Buxton- "Innocence"
Cross Canadian Ragweed-"On a Cloud"
John Mayer- "Love Song for No One"
Marc Broussard- "Home"
Quincy Harper- "Hard To Let Go"
Ray LaMontagne-"Lesson Learned"
Fallon Franklin- "What About Me"

I like to make lists...I make a list almost every day of things I need to do, so it only makes sense that s how I like to blog. So here is a "list" of what has been going on.

~In the past 2 1/2 weeks I have been out more than I have all summer, and although I have been tired I've been happy. I like going out, I like hanging out with my friends, and I like listening to music.

~Last week Jack Ingram's new CD "Big Dreams and High Hopes" came out, I haven't stopped listening to it since, it is one of those cd's that I love.
I love listening to lyrics and this CD is one of the best. So if you haven't got the cd yet, you really should do yourself a favor and get it.

~Work was pretty boring last week and I hate to be bored. Usually I take books to read but I haven't had much time to search and figure out some good books to read so I decided I was going to get a GMAT study guide. I don't really know if I want to go back to grad school or not, but I'm really thinking about going back and getting an MBA. It doesn't hurt to study and take the test now especially since I have time to study. It keeps me busy and that is at least something.

~Thursday night I had gone back and forth about weather or not I was going to Denton to see EYB but I am so glad I did. With the exception of the millions of crickets flying everywhere I had a great time. The best part of the night for me was getting to hear "Guardian Angel" I can't tell you how long it had been since I had heard that song and it honestly made my night. I love how one song can bring back so many memories. Oh and I was also glad that I got to see Mike. When there are that many people and especially at fair I never expect to see any of the boys, but when I do it makes it that much better.

~2 weeks in a row of going out during the week, not the smartest idea but oh well it has been worth it. So I was tired when I got home Friday after work, but my parents wanted to leave as soon as I got home. We went to meet Ashley and Andy at Fuzzy's Taco's and then went to see Roger at the Fair. Susanna met us there and I was really glad to see her since it had bee awhile. The show was good, we stood on the back of the stage most of the night and i had a pretty good time. Oh and people watching from the stage is probably my favorite thing to do ever. Again, I love how one song or certain lyrics can make my night. Towards the end of the show Roger sang "Late Night Case of the Blues" and that is probably my favorite song of his for more reasons than one so I was really glad to get to end the night that way. My parents left and I rode back with Susanna and went sleep as soon as I got home.

~I hate how I haven't had much to do all summer, and the few nights that I have plans everyone wants me to do stuff with them. I am glad I decided to stick with my plans to go with Kelly to see Live Oak Decline at Woody's. I've listened to them before but had never seen them in concert before. I was tired most of the night and so was she but we had a good time and it was just nice to relax and listen to some music.

~Sunday I got to sleep late and then went to play with Dylan for the afternoon. Then that night I went with my mom to Cedar Hill State Park to take pics for photography class and then went home to get ready for the week. Here are a few of my favorite pics.

~Last night I stayed at my grandparents because my granddad and Tommy went hunting for a few days so I'm helping babysit Dylan. So far it hasn't been too bad, but waking up at 6:30 to get him ready for school was a challenge. He is sweet and I love him, but he made me tired.

~I don't really have any plans this weekend so if anyone is doing anything fun let me know. I will probably end up babysitting though, I guess since I went out for 2 weekends I can take one off. Oh and college football starts on Saturday, I am so excited. So I'm sure that is what I will be doing on Saturday...watching football. My life is so predictable sometmes but I kinda like it. 

Most of this summer I have been somewhat...anti social. Okay, anti social may not be the best word, but since I've been "home" I have not been out as much, I haven't been on many road trips, and I haven't really even been to that many concerts. That is not to say that I have done nothing, but just not as much as I usually do. I could say it was because I was back living with my parents, or that I was working all the time, or that I wanted to help my grandparents with Dylan, but to be honest I just haven't felt like it. So after seeing Django @ Woody's last Saturday I somehow was reminded of why I love music so much. For me, the past week could not go by fast enough. I had plans to meet up with Kelly in Grapevine on Thursday to see Django. I kinda missed getting excited about a show, but I really was looking forward to listening to music and hanging out with people that I don't get to see nearly enough. I could probably write and write about Thursday night, but there really are no words. (Maybe I'll post a pic or 2 later...or maybe not) As bad as Friday was, I don't regret a thing. Yes, there are some things that probably could have been done differently, but in all it was a really fun night. Sometimes going out gets repetitive to me and those few nights that are completely unexpected are exactly what I need. The text the next morning that said "please tell us you are alive" says it all. I think that is enough about Thursday night.

When I go out on nights that I have to be up early the next morning I am always scared that I am not going to wake up. So most of the time I wake up every hour or so because I am afraid I am going to miss my alarm, but I was exhausted when I got home and to be honest I'm just glad I woke up. Sometime around the time I needed to wake up the weather got pretty bad outside. The electricity went out and the thunder was really loud. It woke me up, which doesn't usually happen so as much as I'm not a fan of weather like that I was really happy cause I'm not sure I would have gotten up otherwise. Most of the time working for my granddad is awesome...mornings after I have been out most of the night I don't really like it as much! We were not busy at all on Friday, it made the day go by really slow which is the last thing I needed but I somehow managed to make it through the day. After work I went back to my grandparents and had dinner with my family. After that I went home, got ready and met Kelly at Woody's to see Ben Danaher. I'm not sure what we were thinking but we definitely didn't stay that long. We were both tired and ready to go home so after Ben finished playing we both left. Saturday I worked until noon and then came home and took a 3 hour nap. Then I went to see my great grandmother for a little while and then drove to Colleyville to get Renee. We had decided to just go to dinner and a movie, and I was completely okay with that. There was no way I could have gone to a bar and stayed out very late. So we went to dinner and to see Julie and Julia and I came home. My parents were gone this weekend so I had the house to myself so I watched a movie in the living room, feel asleep and got to sleep in late this morning. I spent the morning cleaning and organizing a little then I met Dawn to eat and had a great time catching up with her. That is about it. It was a great weekend with some great music and some even better friends. I wish it didn't have to end but I think I need to go back to work for a few days so I can get caught up on sleep!

Well, not much going on but I figured I could update so here are some random things going on.

~My back still hurts and is not fixed, I have to wait 3 more weeks to go to the doctor again. Maybe by Christmas it will be fixed. Thankfully I have pain meds but they make me tired. The worst thing about this whole thing is I can't dance. I hate it. I want to teach, I miss it so much. I mean I guess I could go against doctors orders, but that is basically what got me in this situation so its probably not the best idea. Uggh.

~Work is going well, still working for my granddad and to be honest I think for awhile I am going to keep doing this. A lot of people think it is an "easy" job and that I just get paid to do nothing but that is far from the truth. Yes, it is an easier job than something else may be, and I am a bit spoiled by my grandparents, but I do work and it really bothers me when people don't think I do.

~Saturday night I went to see Django at Woody's and ended up going by myself. I wasn't looking forward to it cause I hate going by myself but it had been 3 months since I had seen him and that is a pretty long time for me. Anyways, when I got there Kelly who I hadn't seen in over 2 years came in and we had such a great night. It was one of those nights that I really needed. Something a little out of the ordinary for me and a little bit of fun. I get to see her and D again on Thursday and possibly a few more times in the next few weeks. I'm really looking forward to going out and having a little fun. Lesson of the night though...I can't stay out till 5am anymore, although I am sure it will happen again soon. I pretty much did nothing all day yesterday. Oh well...it was fun.

~I'm still taking a photography class one night a week and it has been fun. I am learning so much and it makes me want to go on vacation or somewhere to take pics!

~Nothing else really going on, still trying to figure out what I'm doing for the rest of my life. I've also been thinking more about where I want to live. I've pretty much only been looking for jobs in DFW, but I have been thinking a lot about moving to Austin so I may start looking there and see if I can find anything. I'm also really thinking about Grad school, so I have been studying for the GMAT and might take it sometime in the fall. I guess it will all work out sometime, I guess getting my back fixed is the first step.

~I am really looking forward to the next few weeks, a few concerts and hopefully getting to see some of my friends cause I have really missed them.

Do you ever just get in one of those moods where you are okay but you just want to cry? I mean, there are so many things I should be grateful for right now, but I can't help but want something more. My life is so repetitive and predictable. I guess that is because that is the way I have made it, but some days I just want to do something out of the ordinary. I love my family, I love my parents, but I want to be in my own apartment. I say that, but would that really make me happier? Would that really help the situation? I lived by myself for 2 years, and felt basically the same way I do now. It seems like I deal with this on a daily basis. I live at least an hour away from the few close friends I do have which makes things hard. If I moved would it make things different? I want someone to go to dinner with, I want someone to go see a movie with, I want someone to go to a show with me, I just want someone to spend time with. Is that too much to ask? I guess it is, so then I begin to question who I am. Should I change who I am? Should I make new friends? Should I get a new hobby? I don't know the answers, and honestly I don't see things changing much any time soon because I don't know what to change.

"Put your troubles behind you
And go on to bed
Let go of the worry
There's so much nobody understands
Don't live your life in such a hurry"
~Ryan Adams

I try and make time to blog, I guess so I have time to think about what has been going on in my life. Lately though, I always have something else to do. There has been a lot going on the past few weeks but nothing really major. I got a job offer last week at a photography studio in Arlington, but for several different reasons including the long hours, little pay, and basically no time off, I decided that it was not the job for me. So this morning I declined the job offer, something I never thought I would be doing. For now I'm going to still live with my parents and work for my granddad.

Now, the other reason(s) that I'm not going to be actively looking for a full time position right now is my back. It has been hurting since March, and after several doctors, x-ray's, and MRI's, they have decided I have a herniated disc in my lower back. So for the next few weeks I'm going to be doing physical therapy and getting a cortisone shot. Hopefully it will help because without pain meds I can barely function. I need time off to get it fixed and working where I am right now that is doable. Also, I can still be on my parents insurance and not worry about having to pay medical bills. So luckily I am able to that and after we get everything fixed I will start looking for a full time job again. No this is not my ideal situation, but I'm very grateful that things are working out. Not to mention that I love working for my granddad. I get to see my grandparents almost everyday and the people I work with are great. Oh and the doctor said no dancing for awhile, I'm not very happy about that at all. I miss it...a lot.

Completely different topic but last weekend I went to see Legally Blonde The Musical with Erica and spent the afternoon in Dallas with her. I missed just hanging out with her and Legally Blonde was so cute. All it really did was make me miss dancing though. :( Nothing else really planned for the week other than working and then this weekend is Greg's wedding!

"What was I thinking"

I've decided that was the theme of the weekend, but I actually ended up having a pretty good time. Friday when I got home from work I was exhausted, I just wanted to go home and go to bed but I had to go feed my dad's dogs and my parents and I went to dinner. I had been contemplating going to Lonestar Park to see EYB all week, and after a little "arm twisting" I decided I would go. I got there around 8:45 and then met Dawn and her friends upstairs to watch some of the races. After the races were over we made our way to the stage and ended up to the right of the stage right in front of the speakers. It had been awhile since I had seen a full band show, and it was really fun. I had such a good time "singing" and "dancing" with Dawn and I don't care what anyone says, I love those boys! After the show was over we went to "high five" Phil and then I went home. I am usually not a fan of big crowds like that at all (18,686 to be exact), but I really didn't even care. Here is the pic of Dawn and I from that night, I love it!



Saturday morning I woke up after only a few hours of sleep and my mom and Tommy took me to Hillsboro to meet Lori, Shelly, and Cori so I could ride with them to Austin. I had a really good afternoon/evening with everyone at Greenfest, It's always nice to catch up with people, especially the ones I had not seen in a really long time. I was ready to leave though, I can only take so much at once. I got back to my hotel room and got a few hours of sleep and then we drove back to meet my parents in Hillsboro again. After I got home I took the best 3 hour nap ever then went to my grandparents for dinner and played with Dylan. Now back to the real world, although I'm not going to lie, I can't handle 2 nights in a row of going out and being up until at least 2 anymore. Here are a few pics from the night with Lori, Heather, and Mel!





Oh and I almost forgot the most exciting news...I have 2 job interviews this week. One is for a photographer at a portrait studio in Arlington that sounds like a really fun job. Also, Friday nigh my dance director from high school messaged me on facebook and said that she might have a job for me at the studio so I'm meeting with her this week to see what that is all about. So if yall could keep me in your prayers I would greatly appreciate it. Both jobs sound like great opportunities and hopefully something works out.

So on Saturday night, my stepdad Tommy, my cousins and me went to the museum district in Fort Worth and went on a photowalk. It was this worldwide event where groups of 50 people went and took pictures at different places around the world. Check out the link if you want to know more. My mom signed me up and was supposed to go with me, but she was sick so she didn't get to go. I didn't have high expectations for the night, but it ended up being really fun! Here are a few of the pics I took.

I was trying to get caught up with all the blogs I had not read in google reader and I came across a few quotes that I really loved. I think I have blogged a few of these before...but I enjoyed reading them so I thought I would share.

"One thing is clear to me. You can't know everything you'd like to know. You can't do everything you'd like to do. You can't read everything you'd like to read. You must hold onto some things and let go of others. Learning to make that choice is one of the big lessons of this life."

"And Hansel said to Gretel, 'Let us drop these breadcrumbs ... so that together we find our way home. Because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.'The last year.. I lost my way. And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel. Sometimes I traveled alone, sometimes, there were others who took the wheel -- and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasnt me who arrived...it wasnt me at all. And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: remember the person you used to be or lose that person completely.Because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are" ~One Tree Hill

"Never think that you're not good enough yourself. A man should never think that. People will take you very much at your own reckoning." ~ Anthony Trollope

"In life we don’t get what we want, we get in life what we are. If we want more we have to be able to be more, in order to be more you have to face rejection." ~ Farrah Gray

"You are today where your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you." ~James Lane Allen

Busy but fun week....

This past week was one of the busiest I've had in awhile. I was also really tired for most of it, mostly because of the pain meds I've been taking for my back. 2 nights during the week I even feel asleep at like 9 and woke up the next morning in the same clothes I had on the day before with no recollection of falling asleep...not good. My choices though are to be in pain or be tired...most of the time being tired is the best option.

Sunday night my mom's friend from high school and roommate in college Marcy came to visit for a few days with her 2 youngest girls Becca and Grace. They were so much fun! Monday I worked and then we went to dinner Marcy and some other friends of theirs from high school.



Tuesday is my day off so I was really excited to get to spend the day with my mom, Marcy, Becca, and Grace. We got up and went to Dallas to the Dallas World Aquarium. We spent most of the day there and then Mom and I came home and Marcy and her girls went back to Abilene.









On Wednesday I worked half a day and then me Megly and Narvic in Arlington for the afternoon! We went on a tour of the new Cowboy Stadium and it was so much fun. I wish they lived in Texas so we could hang out more often. After that I was exhausted so I decided to skip going to Dallas and Adair's with them and went home and went to bed. No pics to share right now cause I didn't have my camera, but hopefully Megly will upload them soon!

Thursday I worked and then went to photography class with my mom, Nikki, Clint, and Susie. It really is a lot of fun and I'm learning a lot about my camera. It has been fun to actually learn about my camera from someone who knows instead of teaching myself like I usually do with things.

Friday I worked again and then my mom, tummy, and I went to dinner with our friend Michelle. It had been forever since I had seen her so it was nice to catch up with her. Friday night was one of the nights I went to sleep around 9pm, I guess I was tired.

Saturday I worked and then met Dawn to eat at our favorite Chili's! I had not seen her since I had been back in DFW so it was much needed! During lunch we decided to go see No Justice that night at Gilley's so I went home after lunch and took a nap then went to Dallas to meet up with Dawn and Heather. I had such a great time hanging out with Dawn and Heather, I really wish I lived closer to them. Things are good in Burleson, but I miss my friends. :(

Today I just stayed around the house and did some laundry and cleaned a little. Then I went to see my great grandmother in the nursing home, we picked up pizza and took it to my grandparents house and I played with Dyaln. It was a pretty good day but now the weekend is over. Back to another week of working! I hope you all have a great week!

The 4th of July

I spent the morning with my grandparents, then we went to see my great grandmother and then I went to a cookout with my dad's family...or family and a bunch of people I didn't know but oh well. It was a pretty good day of relaxing and doing nothing. Here are a few pics I took of Fireworks.

Well I’m on vacation right now for a few days. It hasn’t ended up how I planned but I’m going to try and make the best of it. We’ve just been driving for the most part so nothing really to write about yet other than riding in the car is killing my back/leg. Speaking of that, I had an MRI yesterday so hopefully soon I’ll find out what is going on with that. I’m so tired of hurting all the time.

This past weekend was pretty fun. Friday night Susanna came to visit and we went with my parents and Ashley and Andy to dinner and to Billy Bob’s. It was alright, we sat on stage during the show which was pretty nice especially since for the most part I’m not a fan of Billy Bob’s. Saturday morning I had to work then I went to go get my Iphone fixed that had been broke for 3 days (fyi…not a fan of life without a phone) then I went back to have lunch with everyone. After I took a nap Susanna and I went to see “The Proposal” which was a great movie. Then we got home and got ready to go out.

We went to Woody’s to see Ryan James. It was his last full band show and there was no way I was going to miss that. Ryan has become one of my favorite people to see play and just hang out with. When we got there the opening band was just about to start so I got a drink and went to watch the Rangers game on TV. Talked with Ryan a bit and then waited for him to start. The show was great as usual, of course at one point he did have to talk about all the friends he has made on the road and all the good times. Sad…seriously I wanted to cry. He is happy about this so he kept reminding me that he would still do acoustic shows and write songs so that I needed to be happy. After the show ended…well that was interesting too. Not writing much about that, but there are some stations that just need to be resolved. Maybe now shows will not be as awkward as before…who knows.

Sunday I was suppose to go meet my dad for lunch at 11 for lunch and then go to his house for the rest of the afternoon. I made to lunch but I was not feeling so great so I went home after we ate and layed in bed most of the day. Sunday night I went to my grandparents and even though I was stil not feeling that great I had to go play with Dylan. Had a pretty good night and then went home and went to bed.

Monday, I worked then went to see my grandparents and Dylan. Tuesday is my day off but since I had a Doctors appointment, I got up pretty early. I went to lunch with Dad and Kenya after my MRI then came home to pack. We left around 2:30 and that is about it. We drove to Little Rock and stayed the night and we just made it to Nashville. Not sure what we are doing but I guess I’m going to get ready to do something.

Sometimes I want to move far away and never come back. I'm sure that will not make things better but I wish I knew why I'm never good enough. Uggh. Must. Sleep. Now.

"I'm barely holding on
My strength is all but gone
Just barely holding on
Save me from the fall
I don't want to lose it all
But I'm barely holding on"
~RJ

So much going on, so little time

Well, I'm back in Burleson. My stuff is pretty much in boxes with the exception of the few things I actually need. I think I've been busier since I've been back than I was in CS. Here is a little bit of what has been going on in my life.

~I have been working part time...really more like full time for my granddad at his vet clinic. Anyone that knows me knows that is not my ideal job. It is however a pretty good job for now and a little extra spending money. The best part is I get to spend most days with my grandparents

~Things with my uncle/grandparents/dylan are kinda crazy right now but for the most part everyone is good or as good as they can be. I try and at least go every other day and play with Dylan so my grandparents get a break and it has been a lot of fun, I'm exhausted though.

~I had a phone interview last week with a company in Addison that went really well and I have a second interview with the same company on Monday. I'm am really hoping something works out, it seems to be what I want to do and a pretty good company to work for.

~I hate that I've been back for a little over a week and really haven't got to spend much time with anyone. :( I did however go see Mel in Plano last weekend and we had a great time.

~So I've been having back/leg pains for about 3 months now. I hate doctors but finally decided to go. Still not sure what is wrong, possibly a nerve. So we are first going to try physical therapy for 2 weeks and see if that fixes it. If not I have to have an MRI done and possible go to a orthopedic doctor because there is a possibility that i have a problem with a disc in my lower back. I'm really just hoping it is not too serious and can be fixed, being in pain all the time is not fun.

~Nothing major planned for the weekend, possibly going to House of Blues Friday night to see Ryan Bingham with some friends I went to high school with, Saturday morning I'm working, and then Sunday I have to go help one of the ladies I worked with at A&M that is going to be in Fort Worth for the day. What happened to moving home, living off my parents, and getting to go out and have fun??? I'm just kidding, I chose to do all of this and really I couldn't be happier. Okay, that's a lie but it is what it is so I guess I'll make the best of it.

I really don't know if anyone actually reads this, but just in case I just thought I would give you an update. Really though, my life is pretty boring and repetitive.

I'm sad. I'm not going to lie. My apartment is empty, my stuff is in storage, and I'm spending my last night in college station sleeping on my floor with a blanket and pillow. I've cried just about every day for a week. I'm crying now and can't stop. As much as I said I was ready to graduate and move, I wasn't. I don't know what I'm doing with my life and I hate it. I feel like everything I've known for 4 years is all of the sudden ending. I've managed to survive the ups and downs of college so I'm sure this isn't any different, but right now it sucks.

"And it's such a scary place to be, Everything is in between, And i don't know where to go from here, In the end i see it's all up to me, To figure out where i should be, I'm gonna find a way from here"

Now what?

So I did it, I graduated and I have my diploma, now what? I'm in college station working for one more week. I haven't packed at all and I'm so unmotivated to even start. I'm excited to be back in DFW though, that is where I want to be. This weekend was fun with the exception of a few people telling me they would be somewhere and then not showing up. I just don't understand that. I mean, I understand things come up and that I am okay with, but I at least deserved a call. Okay, rant over. Here is a brief recap of the weekend.

Thursday night my family all came to town and we didn't do much. My parents stayed in a hotel and my step sister stayed with me. She had never been to college station before and wanted to go out so I took her to Northgate for a little while and then we went home. Got up early Friday and my dad came and picked us up. Then it was Graduation time!! The ceremony wasn't too long, and luckily I got to sit next to some people I actually knew. Oh and for those wondering, yes I was twittering and facbooking during the ceremony. lol. After graduation we ordered pizza, went back to my apartment, and it was really nice to have my entire family (okay not everyone, but whatever) together getting along. Then we went to get my diploma framed and my grandparents bought me the Benjamin Knox picture that I've been wanting. My Dad and Kenya also bought me a new Nikon D90 camera! I haven't had much time to play with it yet, but so far I love it. Also, My mom and Tommy are taking me on a trip this summer and I think we are going to Nashville. After all of that everyone left and I took a nap and packed. I drove back to Burleson and went to dinner with Dad, Kenya, and Britt then went home and went to bed. I was exhausted.

Saturday, I was going shopping with Kenya and Britt on Saturday but I was too tired so I stayed home with my dad and watched TV. It rained most of the morning so I didn't do much. I had plans to go to lunch and the rangers game with Erica and Brandon but wasn't looking forward to being out in the rain. So we just decided we would go to lunch at Papadeaux's and then decide what to do later. Luckily the rain stopped and we got to go to the game. The weather was great and I had so much fun. After the game I went home to meet my parents and we went to Woody's to see Django. I had fun, but this is when I actually got upset. Not going in to details, but lets just say it wasn't my favorite night.

Sunday morning I got up and went and played with Dylan some and then drove back to CS. I got back in time to unpack some and take a nap. Seriously, this weekend made me tired. Then I met Kaitlin at Lake Bryan to see Ryan James play. I absolutely love RJ acoustic shows @ The Hook. They are always very entertaining. This one was no exception, it was a perfect night to watch a show. I really think I could have stayed out there all night and listened. At one point he even sang his grocery list and I didn't even care. After he finished we sat around and talked for about an hour and a half until I decided it was time to go home since I had to be at work early this morning.

Work and dance, that is what I'm doing all week. Oh and packing. I already don't have enough time. Maybe it will get done, maybe it won't. I really wanted to go see Django @ Gilley's on Friday night and go to Heather's on Saturday but unfortunately I may have to be responsible and stay here. Still hasn't hit me...maybe it will when I actually have an empty apartment. I just wish I had some plans other than moving home without a job. Ughh.

So Close Now...

That is kinda cliche, but I really couldn't think of a better title. It's the night before graduation and I really don't think it's hit me yet. I feel like I could write forever about my last 4 years of college and maybe in a few days I'll do that. Friends, Family, and music...that pretty much sums up college for me. It's been fun and I can't believe its over. I can't really think of much else to write other than I'm really going to graduate!!!! :) WHOOP! '09

I’ve got the streets memorized
I see the faces embedded in my mind
I can’t keep on fighting the urge go
I’ve got nothing in common with this town I’ve come to know

I am so close now to walking away
About to walk a path I’ve gotta take
I am packing up heading out
I can’t sleep I’m dreaming way too loud
I’m so close now, so close now
to getting out

The same old lines, the same routine
Nothing changes and that’s not good for me
I need a break. I need something new
I need to replace these old worn out broken shoes

I am so close now to walking away
About to walk a path I’ve gotta take
I am packing up heading out
I can’t sleep I’m dreaming way too loud
I’m so close now, so close now
to getting out

I’ve got that truck all loaded down
I should’ve known how hard it’d be leave this town

I am...
So close now to walking away
About to walk a path I’ve gotta take
I am packing up heading out
I can’t sleep I’m dreaming way too loud
I’m so close now, so close now
to getting out

~Eli Young Band

This has been a crazy week and honestly not in the way I expected. Not getting in to detail about everything, but here are some random thoughts.

~I'm ready to graduate...I think...okay maybe I'm not. I'm scared.

~I HATE not having my life "planned" out. I have a job until the end of May...and then I don't. I haven't been without a job in years. Again, I'm scared.

~Music makes me happy, but music also makes me sad. Tonight is one of those nights that every song makes me cry.

~Sometimes I wish I could just go to a show, listen to music, and not have to deal with anything else. Sometimes I hate the whole being friends with the band thing. So maybe that doesn't make sense...but to a few of you it does. I'm still not happy about it, I know I should get over it, but seriously, I didn't deserve that.

~La Cienega still makes me smile.

~I meant what I said and I'm sorry. You can choose to believe what you want, but it was sincere.

~No plans this weekend, okay I have 2 5-10 page papers to write. Let's see if they get done. Maybe I'll just go home.

~I may be keeping Dylan some this summer during the day if I don't get a job. I seriously don't know whats going on there. Another one of those things that scares me and that I really can't talk about. I know it will all work out, but sometimes I wonder.

~15 days till graduation...31 days until I move home.

I made it through another week, although I'm not exactly sure how. Here are just a few things from the week.

~I was sick...I'm still sick, that has not been fun at all because I didn't have time to take off any.

~Went to Nacogdoches last Tuesday for a job interview. The interview went well, but something just wasn't right about it. I haven't heard back from them yet, but if I'll do I will let you all know. Mike was playing an acoustic show that night in Nac and I had thought about staying, but I was exhausted and sick so I came home. Whatever they fed us for lunch apparently made me sick, because I had to stop on the drive back and throw up, then I felt better.

~I didn't make it to Muster, I really wanted to go but I just wasn't physically able to get out of bed.

~I got to work at the Becky Gates Children Center Multipurpose center ribbon cutting ceremony on Wednesday. Probably one of the coolest experiences ever! I even got to me Dr. Gates and get my pic with him. (For those of you who don't know, he is the current Secretary of Defense and former President of A&M)

~Even though I was sick, tired, and really just wanted to sleep all night there was no way I was going to miss Mike acoustic. So Melanie and I went to Huntsville and met up with everyone. It was a great show, I really miss acoustic shows. At one point I decided I wanted to hear La Cienega, so I went and told Mike and after a few moments of him trying to figure it out, he said that he couldn't play it. :( Hopefully he remembers the words and plays it this week in El Campo. He did play The More The Room Goes Dark, Ain't The Fallen, and Back of My Mind, so I guess I can't complain too much.

~Work at 8am after being out is not fun. How did we use to do this all the time??? Maybe that's why my gpa isn't so great. haha.

~I only worked half a day on Thursday because I needed to go help set up for the banquet I planned for my internship. Everything turned out great, I seriously had my doubts but it all worked out and everyone seemed to really enjoy it.

~Friday night my mom and 4 of her girl scouts, they are 13, came to visit. That meant I had to clean my apartment and I had no energy at all. I did get it clean and they slept in my living room floor. Then yesterday morning we had to wake up really early and go to the A&M Vet school open house. It was fun, we got to tour the vet school and see lots of animals. Okay, it wasn't that much fun to me, but the girls had fun so I guess thats all that matters.

~I have one paper and one final this week so that should keep me busy. Oh and somehow going to El Campo to see Mike on Tuesday night. I'm gonna be tired, but I figure what better way to spend my last few weeks of college than taking some random weekday road trips.

18 days!!!!!

This weekend actually turned out to be pretty great. I like for things to be planned...and when they don't work out the way I think they should I'm usually not happy about it. Turns out, maybe I should quit planning things and just live life a little. haha! :)

I was so busy last week I didn't really have time to think. I had taken off 3 days the week before because I was sick which meant I was really behind on school and work. So I spent most of the week trying to get caught up. I also decided to go to the doctor, and anyone that knows me knows that I have to be dying or really hurting before I go see a doctor because I absolutely hate going. So about a month ago my leg/back started hurting but I decided I just pulled a muscle and it would get better. Well, it has only gotten worse so I decided I needed to see if I could figure out what is wrong. Well, I still don't know, but I am having an MRI done on Thursday and hopefully it is nothing too serious. The doctor seems to think there is something wrong with a disc in my lower back. Seriously, I feel like I'm falling apart sometimes.

Tuesday night Django was opening for Cory @ Schotzi's so I decided I would go for a little while. I've pretty much stopped going out during the week but I decided I would be fine. Susanna came to CS, we went to dinner then went to the show. I think we stayed until right at midnight. I couldn't stay any longer. I probably could have fallen asleep there if someone would have let me. So I got to see all of Django's show and a few songs from Cory and then we left. I wish I could have stayed longer because the music was fun. Then Thursday I met Melanie at Lake Bryan for John Slaughter and Josh Ward and it was a nice evening to sit by the lake and listen to music. It was an early show and I was home by 10:30.

Now the weekend. Django and Jack were playing @ Harry's Friday night and I had plans to go with several people. Closer to the show, the few people that were going with me couldn't make it and I couldn't decide what I wanted to do. I usually hate going to shows by myself but decided I would anyway, I mean it was Jack and Django. So I got there about 10 min before Django went on and I decided I was just going to sit in the back and listen. After he finished playing he came by and we talked for a bit then he told me to come with him to sell merch. So I spent the rest of the night hanging out with Django, Jack's merch guy, and random people that came to talk to Django. It really was a fun night, I felt bad for Jack because there really weren't a lot of people there at all. I really don't understand why people weren't there because it was a great show. Jack snag a new song that I don't remember the name of and it was amazing, I can't wait for his new cd to come out.

Saturday it rained...alot. I had planned on going to Temple to see Django and JJW, but Django had to leave as soon as he finished so I wadn't going to have anyone to hang out with during JJW so I decided I would just stay home. I'm really glad I did. I went to lunch with Emily who I haven't seen in months, then I went to the A&M Vet School crafish boil with Christy and Jason and then I came home and was just planning on watching the Mavs game and the race and going to bed early. About 10:30 my phone rang and it was my friend Ashley that I haven't seen in several years. She was in town and wanted to know if I wanted to go out with her for the night. So I decided since I didn't really have anything else to do I would get ready and go. We went out to northgate and it was pretty fun, it was good to catch up on things but it was kinda weird. I don't miss high school drama at all and thats kinda what the night felt like, high school. We were really good friends in high school and spent a lot of time together but we really just didn't keep in touch. . She was even at A&M a semester and I rarely saw her. She's graduating in May and planning on moving back home. She said we should get an apartment together, I think I'll just live with my parents. :)

Sunday I had a meeting about the banquet I've been planning at 1 but it ended up getting pushed back until 4 so I went and had lunch with Ashley and talked a bit more with her until my meeting. The banquet is going to be at Texas World Speedway and since I had never been there I decided it would probably be a good idea to go look at things. Everything seems to be going well regarding the banquet, so we'll see how that goes on Thursday.

I am so busy this week, I really don't know how I am going to get everything accomplished. I have a job interview in Nacogdoches tomorrow and I'm suppose to be there at 8am so I'm going tonight after I finish teaching. Oh and turns out Mike is playing an acoustic show in Nac tomorrow night but unfortunately I have to be at work on Wednesday morning at 7:45 so I think I'll have to skip that show. I am also more than likely going to miss Muster, I've never been to Muster here and I really wanted to make it this year so if I make it back in time I'll go but I'm just not sure I will. Wednesday morning I am helping with the ribbon cutting ceremony for the opening of the Multipurpose Building at the Becky Gates Children's Center then I have to go to my internship and finish up last minutes details for the banquet. Then I'm going to Huntsville for Mike acoustic. I'm making myself tired just thinking about it. Then I'm working Thursday morning, then I have class, then I'm having an MRI done, then as soon as that is over I have to go start setting up for the banquet. I might take Friday off because my mom and some of the girls in her Girl Scout Troupe are coming Friday night/Saturday for the A&M Vet school open house so at some point I guess I need to clean my apartment.

I hope you all have a great week!

24 Days till Graduation!!!!!!

44 days...

It is crazy that I am graduating in less than 2 months, but I am so ready. This past weekend was a reminder to me that I really do want to be back in DFW. That is where my family is and a lot of my friends. The past few weekends have been so much fun and has been a nice break from work and school.

Spring Break, which seems like forever ago, was wonderful. Dawn and I spent the week/weekend at my dad's beach house in Aransas Pass and it was great. We also went to several shows, which made it even better. RJ, Wade, EYB, and RRB in 3 days isn't a bad way to spend the week.

The week after SB was just crazy, it always is. I just couldn't get back on a schedule and seemed to not get everything accomplished like I wanted too. Then last weekend I went home and had another great weekend. Friday night was EYB @ House of Blues with Dawn, Deidre, Lori, and Tommy. Okay, let me explain, Dawn ended up with an extra ticket and since her mom was going she called to see if my mom wanted to go. Unfortunately my mom was sick, so Tommy offered to go with me. And as most of you know, he isn't the biggest EYB fan, but I was really glad he went and he even had fun. haha.

Saturday I went to lunch with my dad, and uncle Ronnie and Donnie. It was interesting, but good, I don't see my uncles as much as I would like to so it was nice. Then I went and played with Dylan for a little while and then was planning on going home to get ready to go to Dallas and meet up with everyone at Adair's. Well as I was getting ready, Erica, my friend from college that graduated last year called me and wanted to know if I wanted to go to dinner. So since I hadn't seen her in awhile I decided I would go see her. So I drove to Dallas (2 nights in a row in Dallas is soooo unusual for me) and went to dinner with her and her boyfriend and then hung out at their new apartment for a bit. After I left, it was still early enough I could have made it to Adairs, but I got lost so I just went home.

Sunday I had lunch with my mom and grandparents then my mom and I went to River Ranch in FW to see Maren Morris, Bart Crow, and Mike acoustic. It was a great afternoon and I'm pretty sure I could listen to Mike acoustic for hours and never get tired. Dawn and Deidre were there too, so getting to see them twice in one weekend made things fun! I'm probably going home again this weekend...and the next since it's Easter, but I haven't decided yet.

And I love the lyrics to the new song mike sang on sunday, so I'm sharing...

"How can I win when the battle keeps changing
Do I lay down my gun
Surrender to the demons I'm facing
Should I fight or should I run
Is this the moment that I finally take a stand
and win this war on a desperate man"
~Mike and Blu

1 more week...

and then it's Spring Break!! I'm so ready for a break, the past few weeks I have been so busy with school and work, I'm looking forward to a little bit of a break.

School:
I took 1 midterm last week and have one this Thursday. Thankfully I like to write because last weeks was 10 pages long and I'll probably end up writing another 10-15 pages for this week's test. Even though I don't do very well on multiple choice tests, I kinda miss being able to go in, choose an answer, and be done in about 20 minutes. My graduation announcements are ready for me to pick up and I ordered my cap and gown a few weeks ago. They finally set graduation dates and times too. I graduate May 15 at 9am!! 67 days...but who's counting! :)

Work:
It's been busy, but nothing I can't handle. Last week I went with my coworkers to the Aggie woman's basketball game and had a great time. I wish I could stay there and work after graduation because for the most part I really like everyone I work with. Unfortunately it's not going to happen.

Dance:
Things are going really well at dance, although last week I think I might have over done it. I hurt for like 3 days and even my girls told me they were in pain. Still not exactly sure what I did, but I would prefer not to feel like that again. I still need to finish up choreography, but I feel good about the dance.

Internship:
I feel like I never have enough time to do everything but it has been fun. Currently I am planning a banquet. I've never planned a banquet before and they have never had a banquet before. So it has been somewhat of a challenge, but it has been fun. Other than that, I've just been working on redesigning their promotional materials and trying to plan different events.

Spring Break: I'm working Monday-Wednesday of spring break because I figure the extra money will be nice and I don't really have anything else to do. Then on Wednesday Dawn is coming to CS and we are going to my beach house in Aransas Pass for the weekend. I love going to the beach house and relaxing and it is even going to be more fun since Dawn is coming with me. Now if only I could just make it thorough the week!

I always think I should write, but then I realize I don't have much to update. My weeks are pretty much the same, work, internship, dance, school, sleep and sometimes a concert. The only thing out of the ordinary last week was Django coming Tuesday. Since I don't get to see him very often, I decided I break my rule of not going out during the week. He played at Schotzi's and I didn't get home until 3. I can't do that anymore, I was tired the rest of the week, and then I was sick. I was never really that sick, just enough to make me not feel good. I think it was the lack of sleep. I stayed around my apartment most of the weekend and didn't do a lot. My parents went to the woodland's last night to see JJW and Django, so they came by CS and took me to lunch before they went. Yay for free food! haha.

I ordered my graduation announcements yesterday and picked out a diploma frame. Still scary...I still can't believe I'm actually going to graduate. I've applied for a few more jobs, one in Houston, one in Garland, and one in Gruene. I really don't know that I am qualified for any of them, but I decided it didn't hurt to apply. I'm not freaking out about the whole not having a job thing yet, but I'm sure I will at some point. I've still been looking at several jobs in CS, but I don't think I want to stay here. I want to be close to my family, I want to be by my friends, I need to be around people and all I do here is go to work/school and come home. Hopefully something will work out, but for now I'll just continue keeping myself busy.